Kristen McMenamy

everybody who reads this magazine.

Yeah, I wanted what she had.

Well, that's what I've discovered.

I never thought of myself as beautiful at all.

But I knew with makeup and lighting and hair, I could present myself, I could look beautiful on a photograph.

You know, I took off the makeup and

took off whatever, the dress, and I was back to being this awkward, ugly thing.

And I carry that to this day, you know?

I still feel like little Chrissy in Pennsylvania.

I do.

So the insecurity, plus as a model,

You become more and more insecure.

You are surrounded by the most beautiful girls in the world.

I mean, that is your competitor kind of thing.

Not really, but you know.

And you just, you have to stop yourself from comparing yourself to them.

And plus you have then, you know, when you become successful...

You know, you see them before, like before I ever worked.

I lived with a house full of the most... I mean, I walked in and I thought, my God, these women are...

amazonian beauties you know they're just they must be the biggest models and i just felt so small and so so uh but what's the word in in in in in that you don't you're not inadequate or inadequate or yeah something like that one of the in words yeah what if