Kristen

Like I built it up in my head and also like taking all those like moments when we were together or we're talking, like taking it as like, again, this could be something, but it's again, just breadcrumbs.

And I feel like I'm at that point where I've,

decided there's nothing left for me to do.

Like I've exhausted this with him and I do think about it.

But again, I feel like you're right.

Like if I ever do hear from him again or see him again,

Yeah, for sure.

And yeah, I mean, it's like, yeah, then you kind of go out with people after that.

And then I find myself like, sometimes I would be like comparing.

But, you know, that's the thing too, like going out with a guy who might seem like he has all these green flags and, you know, seems so good on paper.

And then I'm like, I don't feel that like spark or immediate connection and not ending it, but kind of closing that door or opportunity.

But

But yeah, I don't want to force anything either.

So, and I guess the same could be said about him, whatever his reason is, like he didn't want to force things with me.

And I mean, I feel the same way with other people too.

So, but yeah, I feel guilty sometimes.

Like, why did I like a guy who clearly has some, you know, either personal dilemmas or challenges and then there's guys who might seem more

Yeah.

Yeah.

So, yeah, I think I just have to more consciously stop myself from ruminating, like you said, because I feel like that is a trait of mine.