KT Smith

leading this trip and I was like oh okay like he seems pretty cool like maybe I should go and I feel like I know him since he is always on stage or doing whatever um so I didn't really know him and I was still super nervous to go it wasn't until like that week that we were leaving that I was like everyone else is getting their vaccines and all this stuff and I'm like eh whatever it'll work out

leading this trip and I was like oh okay like he seems pretty cool like maybe I should go and I feel like I know him since he is always on stage or doing whatever um so I didn't really know him and I was still super nervous to go it wasn't until like that week that we were leaving that I was like everyone else is getting their vaccines and all this stuff and I'm like eh whatever it'll work out

ended up going. Um, and I've always been one to like really read people. If someone's going through something, I feel like a weight on my chest. If I'm in Walmart, I'll have like a random like weight on my chest. And I'm like, someone in here is going through something. Cause like, I know how to separate it now where I used to not, I used to be like, okay, something's like going on.

ended up going. Um, and I've always been one to like really read people. If someone's going through something, I feel like a weight on my chest. If I'm in Walmart, I'll have like a random like weight on my chest. And I'm like, someone in here is going through something. Cause like, I know how to separate it now where I used to not, I used to be like, okay, something's like going on.

Like, why do I have anxiety for no reason? But it's usually just someone else's weight. And I felt that. And we were all in a group chat. for the mission trip. But then like when we were in the group at the airport, I had mentioned how like, like the wifi sucks on planes. And like, we have like a 24 hour flight basically. And, um, I was hoping that the wifi didn't suck.

Like, why do I have anxiety for no reason? But it's usually just someone else's weight. And I felt that. And we were all in a group chat. for the mission trip. But then like when we were in the group at the airport, I had mentioned how like, like the wifi sucks on planes. And like, we have like a 24 hour flight basically. And, um, I was hoping that the wifi didn't suck.

But then when we got on the plane, he messaged me outside of the group and was like, Oh yeah, the wifi does suck. Ha ha. And I was like, that's weird. So it kind of threw me off a little bit, but then I kept feeling that weight. Once we got there, we all like split up into groups and all this stuff. And I was always in his group and, And so, I mean, I felt comfortable enough to ask.

But then when we got on the plane, he messaged me outside of the group and was like, Oh yeah, the wifi does suck. Ha ha. And I was like, that's weird. So it kind of threw me off a little bit, but then I kept feeling that weight. Once we got there, we all like split up into groups and all this stuff. And I was always in his group and, And so, I mean, I felt comfortable enough to ask.

I was like, hey, I feel like you have a demon. Like, what's going on? And he was like, wait, what? And I was like, I don't know. I just like feel your vibes and I feel like there's something going on that you're not sharing. And he ended up telling me that he was going through a divorce and he was like, it's really hard because I can't be going through a divorce while being a pastor.

I was like, hey, I feel like you have a demon. Like, what's going on? And he was like, wait, what? And I was like, I don't know. I just like feel your vibes and I feel like there's something going on that you're not sharing. And he ended up telling me that he was going through a divorce and he was like, it's really hard because I can't be going through a divorce while being a pastor.

Like it's part of like our thing. Like we'll get fired, all this stuff. And I totally understood that. And I was like, well, you're still wearing your ring and all this stuff. And I hadn't gone through a divorce before at this time. Like I didn't, I thought it was kind of like cut and dry, like whatever that saying is, whatever. Um, and just thought,

Like it's part of like our thing. Like we'll get fired, all this stuff. And I totally understood that. And I was like, well, you're still wearing your ring and all this stuff. And I hadn't gone through a divorce before at this time. Like I didn't, I thought it was kind of like cut and dry, like whatever that saying is, whatever. Um, and just thought,

okay they probably like signed papers because he had said they had papers that they had signed and like figured stuff out but that not all the details are figured out yet and he was still wearing his ring and I was and he was he basically said that he was still wearing his ring because the son that he took on the mission trip didn't know in this like he had a tradition to where each one of the kids got to go on a mission trip and this was his son's first time doing that and he didn't want to ruin the experience and

okay they probably like signed papers because he had said they had papers that they had signed and like figured stuff out but that not all the details are figured out yet and he was still wearing his ring and I was and he was he basically said that he was still wearing his ring because the son that he took on the mission trip didn't know in this like he had a tradition to where each one of the kids got to go on a mission trip and this was his son's first time doing that and he didn't want to ruin the experience and

all very believable. Like I still believe a lot of it to this day. And so nothing happened on the trip. We did not sleep together on the trip. And technically in my mind, he was getting divorced or divorced. Didn't really know. Like he would show me messages. Like we started when we got home, we hung out and then

all very believable. Like I still believe a lot of it to this day. And so nothing happened on the trip. We did not sleep together on the trip. And technically in my mind, he was getting divorced or divorced. Didn't really know. Like he would show me messages. Like we started when we got home, we hung out and then

things kind of like progressed a little bit to where I was getting feelings for him just because to me it seemed like he was responsible and he had kids and like he kind of knew that life of like hey I love the Lord but like I'm going through a divorce but I also know like how to be around children um and I didn't really think that was like possible with other people I don't know I just didn't think anyone would be interested one in a single mom but also like love Jesus and

things kind of like progressed a little bit to where I was getting feelings for him just because to me it seemed like he was responsible and he had kids and like he kind of knew that life of like hey I love the Lord but like I'm going through a divorce but I also know like how to be around children um and I didn't really think that was like possible with other people I don't know I just didn't think anyone would be interested one in a single mom but also like love Jesus and

whatever so he would show me messages and stuff about like the divorce and from his wife I guess at the time about the divorce and like how he wasn't staying there and like he would move out but then like she had to get a job and all of this crazy stuff but I was seeing it so it was true like it was happening and

whatever so he would show me messages and stuff about like the divorce and from his wife I guess at the time about the divorce and like how he wasn't staying there and like he would move out but then like she had to get a job and all of this crazy stuff but I was seeing it so it was true like it was happening and