KT Smith

And like, we both did social media and that's basically, I feel like impossible for two people to both do that career and for it to be lasting.

And like, we both did social media and that's basically, I feel like impossible for two people to both do that career and for it to be lasting.

for me, like I had said earlier, like I want to be in a soft girl era and not feel like I have to take care of so much, but I was taking care of the bills and like all of the bills, except for half the rent, I would pay half the rent and then the rest. Um, And that's just also who I am as a person.

for me, like I had said earlier, like I want to be in a soft girl era and not feel like I have to take care of so much, but I was taking care of the bills and like all of the bills, except for half the rent, I would pay half the rent and then the rest. Um, And that's just also who I am as a person.

Like I offer to do it, but then it gets to a point where it's like, I don't want to have to hold everything together.

Like I offer to do it, but then it gets to a point where it's like, I don't want to have to hold everything together.

Take care of the chickens and do like manly things like that and lawn work and all that stuff. And then, I don't know. I just wanted to enter my softer era. Yeah. But I social media thing was kind of an ick for me. And that was my fault for getting into it, knowing that he did that. I wasn't looking at it like that. I was just I didn't care because I loved him so much.

Take care of the chickens and do like manly things like that and lawn work and all that stuff. And then, I don't know. I just wanted to enter my softer era. Yeah. But I social media thing was kind of an ick for me. And that was my fault for getting into it, knowing that he did that. I wasn't looking at it like that. I was just I didn't care because I loved him so much.

yes and I told him that so like the whole relationship like he didn't really understand why I had such an ick from it and neither did I because I was like I don't know like one I did I did not like being in videos that were planned like I didn't want to like act on social media I'm like very authentic and I don't want it to be like oh that looked bad let's redo it I'd rather just like kind of do it or hey I'm gonna build this act surprised when you see it type thing

yes and I told him that so like the whole relationship like he didn't really understand why I had such an ick from it and neither did I because I was like I don't know like one I did I did not like being in videos that were planned like I didn't want to like act on social media I'm like very authentic and I don't want it to be like oh that looked bad let's redo it I'd rather just like kind of do it or hey I'm gonna build this act surprised when you see it type thing

I just didn't want to be part of that. And that like drove a wedge in our relationship of like, hey, you make your own content. I'm going to make my own. Don't involve me in it. Well, then he looks at that as not being supportive. And that was just like a huge thing for us was I wasn't going to be in his videos. What would his videos be about? Like views, likes, all this stuff.

I just didn't want to be part of that. And that like drove a wedge in our relationship of like, hey, you make your own content. I'm going to make my own. Don't involve me in it. Well, then he looks at that as not being supportive. And that was just like a huge thing for us was I wasn't going to be in his videos. What would his videos be about? Like views, likes, all this stuff.

And then it wasn't until I started therapy after I announced... Because I had always gone to therapy, but I was like, this time I need to work on me. I need to figure out why I am the way I am, why I can't be codependent, and why I just feel like I need control. And it wasn't until I started therapy that I was like, okay, the ick does come from my past trauma. And I didn't want...

And then it wasn't until I started therapy after I announced... Because I had always gone to therapy, but I was like, this time I need to work on me. I need to figure out why I am the way I am, why I can't be codependent, and why I just feel like I need control. And it wasn't until I started therapy that I was like, okay, the ick does come from my past trauma. And I didn't want...

Luke to feel like get all of his validation from all these strangers and women on the internet and then turn into what it did in my prior relationship.

Luke to feel like get all of his validation from all these strangers and women on the internet and then turn into what it did in my prior relationship.

And secretly, I guess I was scared of that. Like, why are you seeking so much validation from all these people when I'm right here? And then it gets to where the whole thing, like what my therapist says is that I never felt like I was enough. And so I didn't want it to turn into that. And then guys hurt so much different. Once they're hurt once, they kind of build up a wall.

And secretly, I guess I was scared of that. Like, why are you seeking so much validation from all these people when I'm right here? And then it gets to where the whole thing, like what my therapist says is that I never felt like I was enough. And so I didn't want it to turn into that. And then guys hurt so much different. Once they're hurt once, they kind of build up a wall.

So we had already announced that we were getting divorced. I was like, hey, let's work on things.

So we had already announced that we were getting divorced. I was like, hey, let's work on things.