KT Smith

Well, we had talked about it multiple times because I would bring it up. I'm a runner. And I would if something happened to me, it's like, OK, well, I won't have my peace unless I'm alone. And that's like that. It's the frickin trauma of being independent, like nothing bad will happen if I'm by myself.

Well, we had talked about it multiple times because I would bring it up. I'm a runner. And I would if something happened to me, it's like, OK, well, I won't have my peace unless I'm alone. And that's like that. It's the frickin trauma of being independent, like nothing bad will happen if I'm by myself.

Thank you. Yeah. Well, I wish I would have had a little bit sooner, but I told him, I was like, I'm glad it happened the way it did though, because I wouldn't have known that I needed to work on myself. I wouldn't have known that why I'm too independent with the family situation that happened, but also with Morgan. Um,

Thank you. Yeah. Well, I wish I would have had a little bit sooner, but I told him, I was like, I'm glad it happened the way it did though, because I wouldn't have known that I needed to work on myself. I wouldn't have known that why I'm too independent with the family situation that happened, but also with Morgan. Um,

And I wouldn't know, like, why I hated social media so much and, like, why, like, all of this tied together. It's like you didn't think I was supportive. I could have been a better wife. But with the social media stuff, how can I, like, be attracted to you if I don't see you as manly type thing with, like, the social media?

And I wouldn't know, like, why I hated social media so much and, like, why, like, all of this tied together. It's like you didn't think I was supportive. I could have been a better wife. But with the social media stuff, how can I, like, be attracted to you if I don't see you as manly type thing with, like, the social media?

And it was stuff that easily could have been worked out if we both – knew where our issues stemmed from and I was like I'm getting to the root of this stuff like let's work it out like I didn't want you seeking validation and that's the only reason I thought it was icky And I wanted to be able to be in a softer area instead of being like the head of the household.

And it was stuff that easily could have been worked out if we both – knew where our issues stemmed from and I was like I'm getting to the root of this stuff like let's work it out like I didn't want you seeking validation and that's the only reason I thought it was icky And I wanted to be able to be in a softer area instead of being like the head of the household.

But after I announced it, he said that I disposed of him too easily and that he had never felt supported. So like he put up a wall. And so then it's been like me fighting for a marriage and going through like the therapy. And he was like, forgive me if I never think that you'll heal or saying that like the Lord can't work miracles and stuff.

But after I announced it, he said that I disposed of him too easily and that he had never felt supported. So like he put up a wall. And so then it's been like me fighting for a marriage and going through like the therapy. And he was like, forgive me if I never think that you'll heal or saying that like the Lord can't work miracles and stuff.

And I'm like, you can't be on social media talking about like being a Christian and like doing all this stuff for your videos and for your views if you're not living it out. So I was like, you need to be real with this.

And I'm like, you can't be on social media talking about like being a Christian and like doing all this stuff for your videos and for your views if you're not living it out. So I was like, you need to be real with this.

Like we can make it work and be each other's biggest supporters and cheerleaders or it's toxic and there's nothing in between because you can't keep me back and forth of like, hey, you see me at the gym and you like want to hug and like be all nice and like. randomly texts me about all this stuff and then when I'm like hey come over or let's work on this like let's do this let's do that nothing

Like we can make it work and be each other's biggest supporters and cheerleaders or it's toxic and there's nothing in between because you can't keep me back and forth of like, hey, you see me at the gym and you like want to hug and like be all nice and like. randomly texts me about all this stuff and then when I'm like hey come over or let's work on this like let's do this let's do that nothing

And so it's been, even now, very in between where it's like, hey, we either go through with a divorce or we work it out. And the ball's in your court. I was like, I was paying for an attorney anyway, but I'm not paying for divorce for a marriage that I've been fighting for. So if you wanted to get divorced, you can take it over.

And so it's been, even now, very in between where it's like, hey, we either go through with a divorce or we work it out. And the ball's in your court. I was like, I was paying for an attorney anyway, but I'm not paying for divorce for a marriage that I've been fighting for. So if you wanted to get divorced, you can take it over.

Yeah. I don't want that to happen either. So it's like at this point where it's just hard because now I'm like, is he just going to cut off and not? If he comes back and then we end up working it out, is there going to be a cutoff point to where? He just leaves and it's fine. And I'm going to think like, okay, well, all these times I was having panic attacks, like where were you type thing.

Yeah. I don't want that to happen either. So it's like at this point where it's just hard because now I'm like, is he just going to cut off and not? If he comes back and then we end up working it out, is there going to be a cutoff point to where? He just leaves and it's fine. And I'm going to think like, okay, well, all these times I was having panic attacks, like where were you type thing.

So I'm also scared, but it's something that, I mean, we signed up for this. We made a covenant. Yeah. It is what it is. We should be fighting for it. And I wanted him to be like, hey, we're not going to try to make it work. We are going to make it work. And that let me down when that didn't happen. But I was like, OK, I'm not going to let my trauma affect that. I'm still going to attempt to fight.

So I'm also scared, but it's something that, I mean, we signed up for this. We made a covenant. Yeah. It is what it is. We should be fighting for it. And I wanted him to be like, hey, we're not going to try to make it work. We are going to make it work. And that let me down when that didn't happen. But I was like, OK, I'm not going to let my trauma affect that. I'm still going to attempt to fight.