Laura

It's mid May, like early mid-May and I'm graduating in mid June and I don't have a job.

I don't even have really a place to live at this point because I could live with my dad, but I don't really get along very well with him and my step-mom and they just got married.

So I don't really want to move in with them and they don't really have room for me either.

My mom, who I'm very close to, she and I were very apart at this time because she was in a relationship where I didn't really like the other person that much.

And they were going to move to Arkansas.

And I didn't want to move to Arkansas.

I knew nothing there.

I had no connections there whatsoever.

So I didn't want to move back in with her because...

I didn't want to go to Arkansas.

And especially when she was with somebody who I didn't really like and we didn't get along.

So at this point, I don't really have a place to live.

I don't have a job.

And now I'm pregnant and I'm freaking out.

And again, I'm starting to think of all of the things in my life that I was supposed to be the best at or I was supposed to be good for.

And one of them was not getting pregnant.

But then I did.

And I felt so ashamed of myself.

And I had no idea how I was going to tell my mom and disappoint her and tell her, Hey, I'm pregnant.

Just like everybody else.