Laura

That was not the right thing to do.

Why did I do that?

And I was very, like, I immediately regretted it, like instantaneously regretted it.

And

That is the start of the guilt.

So like the recovery from it was just like a period.

They gave me, they give you some medication and stuff to take so that you don't get an infection.

But for the most part, it's just like kind of having a bad period.

And so I just remember going back to the house I was living in just for a couple more days.

And then just feeling this overwhelming, like regret, like the whole train ride home, getting like walking back to my house, going back in the house and then being alone.

And there's nobody there because it's, you know, graduation week.

So there's really not a lot of people there and just be like, what the hell did I just do?

Why did, why did I make that decision?

And that's kind of like the whole start of like the after I keep thinking of it as after like everything in my life before and after.

And at this point, I still don't have a job, but I have a place to live.

My sister asked me to move in with her.

She just called me up kind of randomly.

And it was just like, Hey, do you have a job?

Why don't you come live with me?

And you can try to find a job while you're here.