Laura

It was just something that I heard a lot and I knew how difficult it was for them.

So I didn't want to be like that.

I was going to be the perfect kid.

and do everything right.

I also, with my friends growing up, I had a group of really close friends.

There were four girls and four boys that throughout grade school, middle school, we were all very close to each other.

And we were also close during high school as well.

And I was never like the pretty one or the fun one or the social one.

I just felt like I weighed more than them.

I've always weighed more than everybody else my whole life.

Even looking back, I did not.

way that much.

I was very much an average size, but I always felt bigger.

I had really bad acne and I always felt like I was just not somebody that was popular, not somebody who was like good with boys or anything like that.

So throughout high school and even into college, I was never really romantically pursued by anybody.

Or even if it happened, it was

something where like I didn't like them back or I didn't know that they liked me or anything like that so I never really had relationships in high school in college everybody was more focused on studies I went to a college that was very notorious for people not dating and everybody like

we're all nerds, we're heads down kind of thing.

So it just wasn't a thing that happened that often.

And so even in the transition from high school to college, I never really felt desired.