Lauren

And I've always been told I should be smaller.

And so for a majority of my life, a lot of it was internalized because of the ways that other people talked about their own bodies and their own weight.

And there were some things specifically, like in eighth grade, I went on Weight Watchers.

Um, when I was 16, I went to the pediatrician for a sports physical and was told that I was obese and I was full-time sports.

So I've always known that I've kind of, I've, I've kind of always been quote unquote bigger, but

I did a lot of untangling, worked with somebody, and peeled back the layers of that, and then went, oh, I don't have to listen to anything.

I can do whatever I want.

And I did do whatever I want for a couple of years, and now I'm in this position.

Right, right, right.

I'll show you.

I had no self-control.

I had no moderation.

I didn't have any of that and went off the wagon.

And this is the stupid tax for it, right?

Yeah.

And so when my body's changing, because 130 pounds is losing like an entire person, right?

Yeah, exactly.

And my husband's also on this journey with me.

He started a few months prior to me and I talked to him about my fears and he was the one who really grounded me in

Like you're letting your, your fear of your kids feeling, possibly feeling a certain way about themselves.