Leona Macken

I'm not clung to the bed.

I'm not throwing my hair.

I think when people see me, they're like, oh my God, like we thought I wouldn't lose my hair on this one now.

But like my eyebrows are gone, my eyelashes are gone, my hair has thinned loads.

I don't think I'll be able to hold on to it till June.

But like for now, I'm living a good life with this, you know.

It's like...

I'm still able to get up and do things with the kids and I'm still able to go for dinner and do my shopping and do things like this, you know.

This is your first time sitting down speaking about it.

Through the whole thing.

Like I know people tell me all the time, like you need to go and talk to somebody, you need to try therapy.

But because I'm still in the thick of it, I just don't want to drag myself through all that.

I'm like, if I got the all clear, I would be like, let's unpack this.

But I'm like, let's just keep going.

Let's just like, why dwell on that when...

I don't know how long I'm going to have.

I don't know if I'm going to be here this time next year or not.

So it's like, why waste my time reliving it?

Let's just keep going for now.

And that's just how I cope with it.