Leona Macken

And I just thought, gosh, she's so much more intelligent than me and so much more like just able to speak and able to stand up for herself so much more.

I'd never be able to do what she'd done.

But even if it means talking about this and, you know, the fact that my second one that was misdiagnosed was 2020, I think that part is just so important.

Yeah, I couldn't listen to any of that because it all happened in such a whirlwind as well.

Before I knew it, they were like, this person wants to talk to her.

And then I just went, I've no clue what just happened.

Like I came out of court.

It was like a week of madness.

And then...

I could just go back to dealing with all this and I was still in shock like in shock and I think as well in the courts I knew what they were going to say but I don't think my family in them so I had them well warned but I just said to them like they're going to like use really bad terminology like as in like I'm stage four and I'm you know Leona's life expectancy is now really short and

So I just remember looking over at all them and they were hysterical.

So I was more worried about all them.

I didn't even cry.

I was kind of like, thanks, I didn't really know what to do.

But I was more worried about their reaction to all that because I'd heard it all before with consultants and appointments, but they'd never heard all that before.

And I just said, you know, if it's in the paper now, I might say, you know, terminally ill woman, you know.

And I just wanted to prepare them, but I don't think you can prepare them, to be honest with you.

Even the, I think the terminology, even stage four is... So scary, like.

Yeah, it's mad.

Like, I just, I don't feel like I was ever, I know I look really sick and I, like even in 2035, God, I look desperate, but I always still feel myself.