Lewis Howes

spiritual breakthrough and but then i was like okay well anyone could have kids they could just have lots of kids but not really be there as a father as a dad so uh and when i lost my father a few years ago i really felt like oh something shifted in me and i almost i lost him mentally 20 years ago when he went through a brain injury he had an accident and he he was alive physically but

emotionally he wasn't available.

He wasn't a provider anymore with spiritual, emotional, or financial support.

So it was more like I had to support him and our family had to support him.

But then when he fully passed physically, it's like something also shifted at a whole nother level of like, oh, I really need to step into this spiritual or psychological way of being now because I can no longer rely that my father's gonna rescue me.

Even though he was here,

Like maybe he could have bailed me out some way, but no longer can my father bail me out.

And now having twins, it's like, oh, I have to, I get to continue to step up as a man, continue to step up as a leader to myself, a leader to my spouse, a leader to our extended families and provide support.

emotionally, spiritually, physically, financially, and continue to evolve.

I can't be, I don't know.

I don't have the ability anymore to act like a child.

You know what I mean?

I can be childlike energetically, but I have to be able to provide a space to serve.

And serve beyond me.

Obviously, I need to take care of me.

But the goal that I'm hearing you say is, how can we add way more value than we're taking?

And I think that is part of it.

So I don't know what my definition now is, or when you truly become it.

I don't know if you can truly step into manhood if your father's still alive and if you don't have kids.

I don't know if there's still some childish boy energy until one of those things happen, but I don't know.