Liliana

Everything that I had been thinking my whole life up to this point was correct.

I'm being abused at home.

And not only that, but sexual abuse.

And especially the part about oral.

Like, I was just like, I didn't even know people put their genitalia in other people's mouth.

Like, I didn't even know that was a thing.

Like, it just, it horrified me.

So the same day, I told my friend group at school what was going on.

I think at best, some of them were like, that's nasty.

That's really messed up, you know?

But there was a few of them that did not believe me.

And they were like, I think it's really gross that you would lie about something like that and stuff like that.

I get that they're children too, but it...

hurt me then and it hurts me now it definitely affected me because now I can't trust my family I can't trust my friends too and so I was just like well okay maybe I'm misunderstanding something so then I dialed it back and kept it to myself again because the way that the textbook said it was like go to the police this is wrong like this is wrong should not happen but anytime I told anyone they seemed to react like it was nothing so I was just like maybe I'm just wrong about it

So I sat on it for a while.

I sat on it for so long that that school year ended and another one started.

And I remember one of the girls, she was like, do you remember last year when you were trying to convince us you were being abused?

Yeah, I remember.

And I'm glad you think it's so funny, like truly, you know, like.

I remember telling you I was abused and you saying I was disgusting for it, like whatever.