Liliana

So because I was dissociative and had a lot of trauma, like...

I started at night, especially like around the dark and stuff like that, I started like seeing things.

And I don't know, it's hard to talk about because some people tell me like, well, you were a child, so that's normal.

But it's like, it's not normal because it wasn't happening to me before the sexual abuse.

But it's like,

I would make these little pictures on MS Paint.

Do you remember that like back in the day?

And my mom would print them out and I would hang them up on my wall and be like, yes, I'm an artist, whatever.

And I remember I started to get scared of my own art because I started seeing it like move.

I would see like faces in it and stuff.

Or I would see like, I remember I saw this lady and she had like blood coming out of her mouth and stuff like that.

Stuff that six-year-olds don't typically think about.

And I went crying to my parents about it and they took all my pictures down but didn't do anything about the fact that I'm seeing things now.

Or they would put me in the corner and like the, you know, like sometimes walls are textured kind of like the table.

It's like, again, I would see it kind of move and I would see faces or like scary faces would just pop right out at me and stuff.

And I just couldn't do anything about it because nobody cares that I'm having that issue.

So, but yeah, so that was something I was struggling with as well.

I also was the flower girl in one of my cousin's weddings.

So when I was really little, I had this older cousin.

She's about my mom's age.