Louis Tomlinson

Like I was, as if I was telling one of my lad mates, I was just, and I wasn't telling her for any other reason other than to show off and be like, guess what happened to me?

And that, we definitely had that kind of energy together.

You know, we, I always, always saw her more as a best friend than anything else.

And especially because I was her first.

She helped me when she was 19.

We spent the first few years together without a male role model.

So it was a little deeper than your average, you know, son and mother situation.

So I think it really hit me, Mum, like a ton of bricks.

If I had my time again, I would have been more present and aware of those kind of ideas.

And I actually... Here's a story, actually.

I...

I've never told Daisy and Phoebe this.

Daisy and Phoebe are two of my sisters who are identical twins.

And they're about four or five years younger than Lottie, so they're about 21.

Now, I could always tell them apart perfectly, but they look utterly identical, these two, especially when they were really young.

And I can remember the more time I spent at the band, the more time I spent away from home.

I wasn't confident enough to use their name to them.

You know, it would be always like, oh, babe, or like, you know, something that way I wouldn't have to mention the name because I wasn't certain who was who.

These are two sisters that I spent my life with and grew up with, but I think shows just how little I was at home.

And my mum would come out to see me, which was great, but other, you know, the kids were at school and stuff like that.