Louis Tomlinson

None of this ever happened.

You stub your toe.

It'd be annoying, but you just get over it.

Little things like that I really, really struggled with when I was grieving.

So it's things that should work a certain way that don't.

There's a zip on my jacket that won't quite go all the way up.

Real, micro, non-important little things, right?

But I think because of the weight of the stuff that had happened, there was just... Yeah, there was a moment in my life, as I said, for about six months where it just felt like I couldn't win.

In fact, I could only lose.

So that's where even just stubbing your toe, you'd be like, another fucking thing.

Now, it sounds stupid to say, but once you're met with these...

When you're met with that kind of mindset of feeling hard done by, the smallest things definitely can amplify that.

When did you hear that she was sick?

I got friendly with a footballer called Jamie Vardy and he'd invited me to his wedding.

So I was at the wedding and it was like the party afterwards and it was like 10pm.

At this point, I'd already had quite a few vodka red bulls, which was not ideal for the weight of the conversation.

My mum called me.

I was stood outside.

It wouldn't have been out of the ordinary for my mum to call me, so I wasn't worried or anything like that.

She called me like most days, if not every day.