Louis Ziskin

That wasn't generated by somebody else or wasn't somebody telling me something like I had my own clear insight.

And it wasn't really, I guess, clear is not one, but I figured out kind of a hack for myself.

And I understood, wait, I got to stop this.

I also understood that sometimes I was lying when I wasn't even thinking about it.

And I realized that the one thing I hated more than being irrelevant was being humiliated.

So after three months, I call this girl, Nancy.

And I say, hey, Nancy.

She's like, hey.

She's like, how are you doing?

I was like, fine.

Remember when I saw you at the club last week?

She's like, yeah.

I was like, I just want you to know that I lied to the two guys I was with and told them I banged you.

humiliation right it took two years but that's how i broke that habit

is I would force myself into humiliation because I hated that more.

I still hadn't come to grips with the fact that I had an insecurity problem.

I still hadn't come to grips with the thing, but it was an insight.

It wasn't a full insight, but it was the first time.

And later on in my life, because of that, I was able to have deeper and deeper insights into myself, why I did the things I did wrong.

And understanding the difference between me justifying them to the rest of the world and lying to myself that actually that's cool.