Louise Thompson

I have this awful nerve pain that is something that I'll be left with probably forever.

And also, I suppose I've reached a place now where four years down the line, I think, you know what?

I really don't want what happened to me to dictate the rest of my life and what my family unit looks like.

And so we have reached a point where...

My partner and I feel like we would like to be able to give Leo a sibling because we're really close with our siblings.

And I have been left with some fertility.

So I don't have a period.

You know, there are a lot of things that make me feel like less whole and human than I used to be before.

It's not going to be an easy journey.

I have decided to try and freeze some fertility while we then still continue to kind of like work on our mental space because this has affected Ryan actually almost worse than it's affected me.

especially when it comes to growing our family.

I think for him, he's just like, why would we risk anything?

I cannot go through that again.

I cannot be the sole parent again.

I can't afford to have some big shift that means that I'm gonna regress and be scary again and not know who I am and not know where I am and have panic attacks all the time.

So for him, he's like clinging on to any stability.

And then I juggle this hard thing where I think, gosh, we're so lucky because I survived.

I'm here and I do have a good standard of living.

I've also got the most amazing child.

He's so beautiful.