Lucy

It was a very emotional moment for my mom. And I think maybe that also made me uncomfortable where I was scared of like, cause you know, having dealt with her emotional tirades, her being really emotional could be a very negative thing. So my mom said that when she was pregnant with Lauren, that she went to give birth to Lauren. There were complications.

It was a very emotional moment for my mom. And I think maybe that also made me uncomfortable where I was scared of like, cause you know, having dealt with her emotional tirades, her being really emotional could be a very negative thing. So my mom said that when she was pregnant with Lauren, that she went to give birth to Lauren. There were complications.

Her umbilical cord was wrapped around her throat and she suffocated and died. She was born, but due to the brain damage and the suffocation that had happened, she died a few hours after being born. And it was obviously extremely traumatic.

Her umbilical cord was wrapped around her throat and she suffocated and died. She was born, but due to the brain damage and the suffocation that had happened, she died a few hours after being born. And it was obviously extremely traumatic.

Her umbilical cord was wrapped around her throat and she suffocated and died. She was born, but due to the brain damage and the suffocation that had happened, she died a few hours after being born. And it was obviously extremely traumatic.

You know, you give birth full term to a baby and then to have it die while you're giving birth is really hard, especially because for my family, even though there are five of us, including Lauren, Lauren was the only one my parents actually tried to have. That was the only planned child that they had. And she died.

You know, you give birth full term to a baby and then to have it die while you're giving birth is really hard, especially because for my family, even though there are five of us, including Lauren, Lauren was the only one my parents actually tried to have. That was the only planned child that they had. And she died.

You know, you give birth full term to a baby and then to have it die while you're giving birth is really hard, especially because for my family, even though there are five of us, including Lauren, Lauren was the only one my parents actually tried to have. That was the only planned child that they had. And she died.

So while yes, my little kid brain was not that shocked, I do think it's important to note, I had no idea that I had another sister. She was not discussed. It was obviously an extremely traumatic thing for my family and they, my family suppresses. So it was very much a shock to learn that I did have another sister and potentially the friend I was talking to was my sister, if that makes sense.

So while yes, my little kid brain was not that shocked, I do think it's important to note, I had no idea that I had another sister. She was not discussed. It was obviously an extremely traumatic thing for my family and they, my family suppresses. So it was very much a shock to learn that I did have another sister and potentially the friend I was talking to was my sister, if that makes sense.

So while yes, my little kid brain was not that shocked, I do think it's important to note, I had no idea that I had another sister. She was not discussed. It was obviously an extremely traumatic thing for my family and they, my family suppresses. So it was very much a shock to learn that I did have another sister and potentially the friend I was talking to was my sister, if that makes sense.

I think when my mom took me to the grave, I was kind of confused because Because she was like, I think it's your sister that you're talking to. Part of me was like, oh, okay, that makes sense. But also, I was confused that she was saying that her body was in the ground. I do remember feeling that way. It was probably my first real introduction to what death was. now that I think about it.

I think when my mom took me to the grave, I was kind of confused because Because she was like, I think it's your sister that you're talking to. Part of me was like, oh, okay, that makes sense. But also, I was confused that she was saying that her body was in the ground. I do remember feeling that way. It was probably my first real introduction to what death was. now that I think about it.

I think when my mom took me to the grave, I was kind of confused because Because she was like, I think it's your sister that you're talking to. Part of me was like, oh, okay, that makes sense. But also, I was confused that she was saying that her body was in the ground. I do remember feeling that way. It was probably my first real introduction to what death was. now that I think about it.

And yes, she was my sister. That part was very easy to accept. The confusing part for my four-year-old brain was that her body was in the ground. And that she died as a baby because she wasn't appearing to me as a baby, obviously. So it felt confusing, but also I've accepted it pretty easily. And from that point on, I just always thought of her as my sister.

And yes, she was my sister. That part was very easy to accept. The confusing part for my four-year-old brain was that her body was in the ground. And that she died as a baby because she wasn't appearing to me as a baby, obviously. So it felt confusing, but also I've accepted it pretty easily. And from that point on, I just always thought of her as my sister.

And yes, she was my sister. That part was very easy to accept. The confusing part for my four-year-old brain was that her body was in the ground. And that she died as a baby because she wasn't appearing to me as a baby, obviously. So it felt confusing, but also I've accepted it pretty easily. And from that point on, I just always thought of her as my sister.

So after visiting Lauren's grave, everything still was the same. I still saw Lauren. She was still my best friend. I just kind of had a renewed appreciation for her. Yeah. And then after that, it was back to business as usual. Lauren was still there all the time, hanging out with me, playing with me.

So after visiting Lauren's grave, everything still was the same. I still saw Lauren. She was still my best friend. I just kind of had a renewed appreciation for her. Yeah. And then after that, it was back to business as usual. Lauren was still there all the time, hanging out with me, playing with me.

So after visiting Lauren's grave, everything still was the same. I still saw Lauren. She was still my best friend. I just kind of had a renewed appreciation for her. Yeah. And then after that, it was back to business as usual. Lauren was still there all the time, hanging out with me, playing with me.