Lucy

I mean, I do think it's important that I did question for most of my teenage years and early to mid-20s. I was like, did I somehow overhear these conversations taking place? Did I hear my mom blaming Jennifer and I created this manifestation of a child that was her dead child? Did I somehow do this?

I mean, I have considered that, but after talking to my sister and my mom about this, they didn't talk about it. It wasn't ever shared because it was such an uncomfortable topic. I still remember seeing this girl my whole childhood and talking to her and her keeping me company. I mean, when I tell you that she was my best friend, she really was.

I mean, I have considered that, but after talking to my sister and my mom about this, they didn't talk about it. It wasn't ever shared because it was such an uncomfortable topic. I still remember seeing this girl my whole childhood and talking to her and her keeping me company. I mean, when I tell you that she was my best friend, she really was.

I mean, I have considered that, but after talking to my sister and my mom about this, they didn't talk about it. It wasn't ever shared because it was such an uncomfortable topic. I still remember seeing this girl my whole childhood and talking to her and her keeping me company. I mean, when I tell you that she was my best friend, she really was.

When I was three or four, I didn't need anybody else. I just wanted to hang out with her. It wasn't just me talking to myself. I heard another voice talking to me. I'm not confident on exactly what she was. I don't know that I will ever know in this lifetime. But I do feel like there was a reason that she was there for me and was my best friend.

When I was three or four, I didn't need anybody else. I just wanted to hang out with her. It wasn't just me talking to myself. I heard another voice talking to me. I'm not confident on exactly what she was. I don't know that I will ever know in this lifetime. But I do feel like there was a reason that she was there for me and was my best friend.

When I was three or four, I didn't need anybody else. I just wanted to hang out with her. It wasn't just me talking to myself. I heard another voice talking to me. I'm not confident on exactly what she was. I don't know that I will ever know in this lifetime. But I do feel like there was a reason that she was there for me and was my best friend.

And she brought so much peace to my life and seemingly to my sister's life. And possibly to my mom, you know, maybe although my mom's initial reaction was anger, I think that was because she thought that Jennifer had told me to say that. And then once she realized that that wasn't the case, when she really began to process the fact that I was actually seemingly talking to her,

And she brought so much peace to my life and seemingly to my sister's life. And possibly to my mom, you know, maybe although my mom's initial reaction was anger, I think that was because she thought that Jennifer had told me to say that. And then once she realized that that wasn't the case, when she really began to process the fact that I was actually seemingly talking to her,

And she brought so much peace to my life and seemingly to my sister's life. And possibly to my mom, you know, maybe although my mom's initial reaction was anger, I think that was because she thought that Jennifer had told me to say that. And then once she realized that that wasn't the case, when she really began to process the fact that I was actually seemingly talking to her,

my dead sister, Lauren, I think it brought my mom a lot of peace. I think a lot of moms have a lot of guilt when they lose a baby. They feel like they've done something wrong. So maybe she was projecting onto Jennifer. I think Lauren was with me to bring me comfort while dealing with my mom and then to also bring Jennifer comfort and release from all of the guilt that she had had for 13 years.

my dead sister, Lauren, I think it brought my mom a lot of peace. I think a lot of moms have a lot of guilt when they lose a baby. They feel like they've done something wrong. So maybe she was projecting onto Jennifer. I think Lauren was with me to bring me comfort while dealing with my mom and then to also bring Jennifer comfort and release from all of the guilt that she had had for 13 years.

my dead sister, Lauren, I think it brought my mom a lot of peace. I think a lot of moms have a lot of guilt when they lose a baby. They feel like they've done something wrong. So maybe she was projecting onto Jennifer. I think Lauren was with me to bring me comfort while dealing with my mom and then to also bring Jennifer comfort and release from all of the guilt that she had had for 13 years.

And if that's all that came out of this situation, that would be enough. I feel like I had a best friend when I needed it. And I have missed her my whole life since I was 10. I think about her a lot. But I also understand that... I don't think I could have been in high school and been seeing my dead sister and talking to her and could have still lived a normal life.

And if that's all that came out of this situation, that would be enough. I feel like I had a best friend when I needed it. And I have missed her my whole life since I was 10. I think about her a lot. But I also understand that... I don't think I could have been in high school and been seeing my dead sister and talking to her and could have still lived a normal life.

And if that's all that came out of this situation, that would be enough. I feel like I had a best friend when I needed it. And I have missed her my whole life since I was 10. I think about her a lot. But I also understand that... I don't think I could have been in high school and been seeing my dead sister and talking to her and could have still lived a normal life.

You know, I realized that this is going to paint my mom in a negative light. And it is really important to me that people don't harp on that because although it is awful and we experienced a lot of trauma, I am in a place where I am really finding forgiveness for my mom.

You know, I realized that this is going to paint my mom in a negative light. And it is really important to me that people don't harp on that because although it is awful and we experienced a lot of trauma, I am in a place where I am really finding forgiveness for my mom.

You know, I realized that this is going to paint my mom in a negative light. And it is really important to me that people don't harp on that because although it is awful and we experienced a lot of trauma, I am in a place where I am really finding forgiveness for my mom.

And ultimately, just reflecting on the fact that my mom was also going through her own trauma and people going through trauma do and say weird things. And ultimately, I just feel that Lauren came back to stay with me to help the three of us, my mom, Jennifer, and me find some sort of peace within ourselves and each other.