Lucy

I remember my mom definitely kind of treating me slightly differently and paying attention more, maybe. And then one day she takes us on a road trip, like three hours away, and she takes me to a graveyard. And in this graveyard are a lot of my ancestors that have been buried, you know, back to the 1700s. And She takes me to the tiniest little grave in this plot.

And there's a little lamb that sits on top. And it says, Lauren, daughter of my parents' names. And then the birth and the death date are the exact same date. And it's from the early 80s. She says to me then, you know that little girl that you talked to? And I said, yes, Lauren. And she said, yes, I think that Lauren is my other little girl that died before you were born.

And there's a little lamb that sits on top. And it says, Lauren, daughter of my parents' names. And then the birth and the death date are the exact same date. And it's from the early 80s. She says to me then, you know that little girl that you talked to? And I said, yes, Lauren. And she said, yes, I think that Lauren is my other little girl that died before you were born.

And there's a little lamb that sits on top. And it says, Lauren, daughter of my parents' names. And then the birth and the death date are the exact same date. And it's from the early 80s. She says to me then, you know that little girl that you talked to? And I said, yes, Lauren. And she said, yes, I think that Lauren is my other little girl that died before you were born.

I don't remember the exact reaction, but I do kind of remember it just clicking into place that Lauren wasn't just my friend, but my sister. And, you know, kids are pretty easy to appeal to with this. I think I just accepted it very readily. But I do remember there being like a morbid element to me of, like, I felt uncomfortable being by her grave. But my mom was deeply emotional.

I don't remember the exact reaction, but I do kind of remember it just clicking into place that Lauren wasn't just my friend, but my sister. And, you know, kids are pretty easy to appeal to with this. I think I just accepted it very readily. But I do remember there being like a morbid element to me of, like, I felt uncomfortable being by her grave. But my mom was deeply emotional.

I don't remember the exact reaction, but I do kind of remember it just clicking into place that Lauren wasn't just my friend, but my sister. And, you know, kids are pretty easy to appeal to with this. I think I just accepted it very readily. But I do remember there being like a morbid element to me of, like, I felt uncomfortable being by her grave. But my mom was deeply emotional.

It was a very emotional moment for my mom. And I think maybe that also made me uncomfortable where I was scared of like, cause you know, having dealt with her emotional tirades, her being really emotional could be a very negative thing. So my mom said that when she was pregnant with Lauren, that she went to give birth to Lauren. There were complications.

It was a very emotional moment for my mom. And I think maybe that also made me uncomfortable where I was scared of like, cause you know, having dealt with her emotional tirades, her being really emotional could be a very negative thing. So my mom said that when she was pregnant with Lauren, that she went to give birth to Lauren. There were complications.

It was a very emotional moment for my mom. And I think maybe that also made me uncomfortable where I was scared of like, cause you know, having dealt with her emotional tirades, her being really emotional could be a very negative thing. So my mom said that when she was pregnant with Lauren, that she went to give birth to Lauren. There were complications.

Her umbilical cord was wrapped around her throat and she suffocated and died. She was born, but due to the brain damage and the suffocation that had happened, she died a few hours after being born. And it was obviously extremely traumatic.

Her umbilical cord was wrapped around her throat and she suffocated and died. She was born, but due to the brain damage and the suffocation that had happened, she died a few hours after being born. And it was obviously extremely traumatic.

Her umbilical cord was wrapped around her throat and she suffocated and died. She was born, but due to the brain damage and the suffocation that had happened, she died a few hours after being born. And it was obviously extremely traumatic.

You know, you give birth full term to a baby and then to have it die while you're giving birth is really hard, especially because for my family, even though there are five of us, including Lauren, Lauren was the only one my parents actually tried to have. That was the only planned child that they had. And she died.

You know, you give birth full term to a baby and then to have it die while you're giving birth is really hard, especially because for my family, even though there are five of us, including Lauren, Lauren was the only one my parents actually tried to have. That was the only planned child that they had. And she died.

You know, you give birth full term to a baby and then to have it die while you're giving birth is really hard, especially because for my family, even though there are five of us, including Lauren, Lauren was the only one my parents actually tried to have. That was the only planned child that they had. And she died.

So while yes, my little kid brain was not that shocked, I do think it's important to note, I had no idea that I had another sister. She was not discussed. It was obviously an extremely traumatic thing for my family and they, my family suppresses. So it was very much a shock to learn that I did have another sister and potentially the friend I was talking to was my sister, if that makes sense.

So while yes, my little kid brain was not that shocked, I do think it's important to note, I had no idea that I had another sister. She was not discussed. It was obviously an extremely traumatic thing for my family and they, my family suppresses. So it was very much a shock to learn that I did have another sister and potentially the friend I was talking to was my sister, if that makes sense.

So while yes, my little kid brain was not that shocked, I do think it's important to note, I had no idea that I had another sister. She was not discussed. It was obviously an extremely traumatic thing for my family and they, my family suppresses. So it was very much a shock to learn that I did have another sister and potentially the friend I was talking to was my sister, if that makes sense.

I think when my mom took me to the grave, I was kind of confused because Because she was like, I think it's your sister that you're talking to. Part of me was like, oh, okay, that makes sense. But also, I was confused that she was saying that her body was in the ground. I do remember feeling that way. It was probably my first real introduction to what death was. now that I think about it.