Lucy

So around this time, I am 10-ish. My sister is 23 and she is really making an effort to connect with me. And I think, you know, she was finally somewhat successful in her life. She was in nursing school and she really, she did everything she could to kind of protect me from our mom so that I didn't have to undergo the extent of the damage that mom had done to her.

But she was just a child trying to survive when we were kids too. So I don't hold this against her whatsoever. But she would come and get me for the weekend. I would go and stay with her. It felt really special. I felt really, really special to be able to do that with her.

But she was just a child trying to survive when we were kids too. So I don't hold this against her whatsoever. But she would come and get me for the weekend. I would go and stay with her. It felt really special. I felt really, really special to be able to do that with her.

But she was just a child trying to survive when we were kids too. So I don't hold this against her whatsoever. But she would come and get me for the weekend. I would go and stay with her. It felt really special. I felt really, really special to be able to do that with her.

And then after I had given my mom the poem about Lauren, Jennifer and I were in the car together and we're talking about the poem. And she's like, do you remember what you said to me when you were a little girl? And I was like, Yes, I do. And she was like, do you know why I got so upset? And I was like, no. And she said, it's because mom blamed me for Lauren's death.

And then after I had given my mom the poem about Lauren, Jennifer and I were in the car together and we're talking about the poem. And she's like, do you remember what you said to me when you were a little girl? And I was like, Yes, I do. And she was like, do you know why I got so upset? And I was like, no. And she said, it's because mom blamed me for Lauren's death.

And then after I had given my mom the poem about Lauren, Jennifer and I were in the car together and we're talking about the poem. And she's like, do you remember what you said to me when you were a little girl? And I was like, Yes, I do. And she was like, do you know why I got so upset? And I was like, no. And she said, it's because mom blamed me for Lauren's death.

When I prayed or hoped that, you know, she wouldn't have another baby when the baby did die, when Lauren did die. Mom was already very mentally unwell, but I think losing Lauren completely just like cracked her open. And she blamed Jennifer for Lauren's death. She blamed a four or five year old little girl and it completely shattered my sister. She said that she just didn't want a sibling.

When I prayed or hoped that, you know, she wouldn't have another baby when the baby did die, when Lauren did die. Mom was already very mentally unwell, but I think losing Lauren completely just like cracked her open. And she blamed Jennifer for Lauren's death. She blamed a four or five year old little girl and it completely shattered my sister. She said that she just didn't want a sibling.

When I prayed or hoped that, you know, she wouldn't have another baby when the baby did die, when Lauren did die. Mom was already very mentally unwell, but I think losing Lauren completely just like cracked her open. And she blamed Jennifer for Lauren's death. She blamed a four or five year old little girl and it completely shattered my sister. She said that she just didn't want a sibling.

So, I mean, I remember when my mom told me that she was pregnant with our little brother, I was also really upset. That is a very typical kid reaction. She said that she doesn't remember specifically, quote, praying that the baby would die. But that is what my mom says that she did.

So, I mean, I remember when my mom told me that she was pregnant with our little brother, I was also really upset. That is a very typical kid reaction. She said that she doesn't remember specifically, quote, praying that the baby would die. But that is what my mom says that she did.

So, I mean, I remember when my mom told me that she was pregnant with our little brother, I was also really upset. That is a very typical kid reaction. She said that she doesn't remember specifically, quote, praying that the baby would die. But that is what my mom says that she did.

Jennifer remembers very distinctly going to check on my mom because she could hear my mom crying and had hold herself up in her bedroom and didn't want to talk to anybody. And she went in to check on her and she opened the door and she said, mama. And my mom was like, are you happy? You got what you wanted. this is all your fault.

Jennifer remembers very distinctly going to check on my mom because she could hear my mom crying and had hold herself up in her bedroom and didn't want to talk to anybody. And she went in to check on her and she opened the door and she said, mama. And my mom was like, are you happy? You got what you wanted. this is all your fault.

Jennifer remembers very distinctly going to check on my mom because she could hear my mom crying and had hold herself up in her bedroom and didn't want to talk to anybody. And she went in to check on her and she opened the door and she said, mama. And my mom was like, are you happy? You got what you wanted. this is all your fault.

And I had specifically asked Jennifer, do you remember mom saying, it's your fault? And she was like, those exact words. Like she said, this is your fault. Because part of me was like, maybe as a child, she misunderstood that. But unfortunately, it seems that my mom not only blamed her then, but then continued to blame her for many years after. Jennifer developed severe mental health issues.

And I had specifically asked Jennifer, do you remember mom saying, it's your fault? And she was like, those exact words. Like she said, this is your fault. Because part of me was like, maybe as a child, she misunderstood that. But unfortunately, it seems that my mom not only blamed her then, but then continued to blame her for many years after. Jennifer developed severe mental health issues.

And I had specifically asked Jennifer, do you remember mom saying, it's your fault? And she was like, those exact words. Like she said, this is your fault. Because part of me was like, maybe as a child, she misunderstood that. But unfortunately, it seems that my mom not only blamed her then, but then continued to blame her for many years after. Jennifer developed severe mental health issues.

She started self-harming and a teacher noticed it at school. And this teacher had self-harmed in the same way, so understood immediately what was happening and understood that it was a result of trauma. And told my mom, you need to get her into a psychologist ASAP. And Jennifer remembers my mom just domineering the entire conversation. And she was like, what did they think was going to happen?