Lucy

If only I could tell you, if only you could see, if only you were here and were standing next to me, I would tell you that I loved you and that I always cared, that you were always with me, especially when I was scared. And there's like at least three more verses that's like, I remember saying she's behind like an angel guarded door or something. It's very saccharine, but I was 11, okay? Yeah.

If only I could tell you, if only you could see, if only you were here and were standing next to me, I would tell you that I loved you and that I always cared, that you were always with me, especially when I was scared. And there's like at least three more verses that's like, I remember saying she's behind like an angel guarded door or something. It's very saccharine, but I was 11, okay? Yeah.

So around this time, I am 10-ish. My sister is 23 and she is really making an effort to connect with me. And I think, you know, she was finally somewhat successful in her life. She was in nursing school and she really, she did everything she could to kind of protect me from our mom so that I didn't have to undergo the extent of the damage that mom had done to her.

So around this time, I am 10-ish. My sister is 23 and she is really making an effort to connect with me. And I think, you know, she was finally somewhat successful in her life. She was in nursing school and she really, she did everything she could to kind of protect me from our mom so that I didn't have to undergo the extent of the damage that mom had done to her.

So around this time, I am 10-ish. My sister is 23 and she is really making an effort to connect with me. And I think, you know, she was finally somewhat successful in her life. She was in nursing school and she really, she did everything she could to kind of protect me from our mom so that I didn't have to undergo the extent of the damage that mom had done to her.

But she was just a child trying to survive when we were kids too. So I don't hold this against her whatsoever. But she would come and get me for the weekend. I would go and stay with her. It felt really special. I felt really, really special to be able to do that with her.

But she was just a child trying to survive when we were kids too. So I don't hold this against her whatsoever. But she would come and get me for the weekend. I would go and stay with her. It felt really special. I felt really, really special to be able to do that with her.

But she was just a child trying to survive when we were kids too. So I don't hold this against her whatsoever. But she would come and get me for the weekend. I would go and stay with her. It felt really special. I felt really, really special to be able to do that with her.

And then after I had given my mom the poem about Lauren, Jennifer and I were in the car together and we're talking about the poem. And she's like, do you remember what you said to me when you were a little girl? And I was like, Yes, I do. And she was like, do you know why I got so upset? And I was like, no. And she said, it's because mom blamed me for Lauren's death.

And then after I had given my mom the poem about Lauren, Jennifer and I were in the car together and we're talking about the poem. And she's like, do you remember what you said to me when you were a little girl? And I was like, Yes, I do. And she was like, do you know why I got so upset? And I was like, no. And she said, it's because mom blamed me for Lauren's death.

And then after I had given my mom the poem about Lauren, Jennifer and I were in the car together and we're talking about the poem. And she's like, do you remember what you said to me when you were a little girl? And I was like, Yes, I do. And she was like, do you know why I got so upset? And I was like, no. And she said, it's because mom blamed me for Lauren's death.

When I prayed or hoped that, you know, she wouldn't have another baby when the baby did die, when Lauren did die. Mom was already very mentally unwell, but I think losing Lauren completely just like cracked her open. And she blamed Jennifer for Lauren's death. She blamed a four or five year old little girl and it completely shattered my sister. She said that she just didn't want a sibling.

When I prayed or hoped that, you know, she wouldn't have another baby when the baby did die, when Lauren did die. Mom was already very mentally unwell, but I think losing Lauren completely just like cracked her open. And she blamed Jennifer for Lauren's death. She blamed a four or five year old little girl and it completely shattered my sister. She said that she just didn't want a sibling.

When I prayed or hoped that, you know, she wouldn't have another baby when the baby did die, when Lauren did die. Mom was already very mentally unwell, but I think losing Lauren completely just like cracked her open. And she blamed Jennifer for Lauren's death. She blamed a four or five year old little girl and it completely shattered my sister. She said that she just didn't want a sibling.

So, I mean, I remember when my mom told me that she was pregnant with our little brother, I was also really upset. That is a very typical kid reaction. She said that she doesn't remember specifically, quote, praying that the baby would die. But that is what my mom says that she did.

So, I mean, I remember when my mom told me that she was pregnant with our little brother, I was also really upset. That is a very typical kid reaction. She said that she doesn't remember specifically, quote, praying that the baby would die. But that is what my mom says that she did.

So, I mean, I remember when my mom told me that she was pregnant with our little brother, I was also really upset. That is a very typical kid reaction. She said that she doesn't remember specifically, quote, praying that the baby would die. But that is what my mom says that she did.

Jennifer remembers very distinctly going to check on my mom because she could hear my mom crying and had hold herself up in her bedroom and didn't want to talk to anybody. And she went in to check on her and she opened the door and she said, mama. And my mom was like, are you happy? You got what you wanted. this is all your fault.

Jennifer remembers very distinctly going to check on my mom because she could hear my mom crying and had hold herself up in her bedroom and didn't want to talk to anybody. And she went in to check on her and she opened the door and she said, mama. And my mom was like, are you happy? You got what you wanted. this is all your fault.

Jennifer remembers very distinctly going to check on my mom because she could hear my mom crying and had hold herself up in her bedroom and didn't want to talk to anybody. And she went in to check on her and she opened the door and she said, mama. And my mom was like, are you happy? You got what you wanted. this is all your fault.