Lucy

I remember what she looks like. I don't remember if she could play with toys, but I feel like I feel like maybe I can see the fact that she was there and we're playing in my bedroom. Like I can still see my childhood bedroom, but I don't remember if she would like, if she would move the dolls while we're playing or move the stuffed animals while we're playing.

I do remember her looking the same age as me. She reflected whatever age I was at. I don't remember if Lauren and I ever broached the fact that she was my dead sister. But I do remember her just intense protective energy. And the energy did feel like intense sisterhood. My mom has seen a little girl with me when I was young. She saw a little girl with short brown hair multiple times.

I do remember her looking the same age as me. She reflected whatever age I was at. I don't remember if Lauren and I ever broached the fact that she was my dead sister. But I do remember her just intense protective energy. And the energy did feel like intense sisterhood. My mom has seen a little girl with me when I was young. She saw a little girl with short brown hair multiple times.

I do remember her looking the same age as me. She reflected whatever age I was at. I don't remember if Lauren and I ever broached the fact that she was my dead sister. But I do remember her just intense protective energy. And the energy did feel like intense sisterhood. My mom has seen a little girl with me when I was young. She saw a little girl with short brown hair multiple times.

And then she had told my dad, and my dad didn't believe her. Because my dad likes spiritual, spooky stuff, but he's very much a skeptic. It's more like entertainment for him. And he didn't believe her at all. But then one day he came home, and he said, what friend does Lucy have over him? And my mom says, she doesn't have a friend over. What did you see?

And then she had told my dad, and my dad didn't believe her. Because my dad likes spiritual, spooky stuff, but he's very much a skeptic. It's more like entertainment for him. And he didn't believe her at all. But then one day he came home, and he said, what friend does Lucy have over him? And my mom says, she doesn't have a friend over. What did you see?

And then she had told my dad, and my dad didn't believe her. Because my dad likes spiritual, spooky stuff, but he's very much a skeptic. It's more like entertainment for him. And he didn't believe her at all. But then one day he came home, and he said, what friend does Lucy have over him? And my mom says, she doesn't have a friend over. What did you see?

And my dad was like, what are you talking about? Like, stop, you know, don't do this to me. And she was like, no, she doesn't have a friend over. Did you see a little girl with short brown hair? And that's exactly what my dad had seen. So it wasn't just like me seeing her. It was also my parents. the older I got and the more I guess I like leaned into my left brain. I don't know.

And my dad was like, what are you talking about? Like, stop, you know, don't do this to me. And she was like, no, she doesn't have a friend over. Did you see a little girl with short brown hair? And that's exactly what my dad had seen. So it wasn't just like me seeing her. It was also my parents. the older I got and the more I guess I like leaned into my left brain. I don't know.

And my dad was like, what are you talking about? Like, stop, you know, don't do this to me. And she was like, no, she doesn't have a friend over. Did you see a little girl with short brown hair? And that's exactly what my dad had seen. So it wasn't just like me seeing her. It was also my parents. the older I got and the more I guess I like leaned into my left brain. I don't know.

Like, and the more like I got connected to the outside world, you know, and had other friends, um, the less I felt like she showed up. I feel like she showed up less and less, but I still remember talking to her a lot. I would do the same thing where I would close my door and just play and talk to her. And I would ride my bike.

Like, and the more like I got connected to the outside world, you know, and had other friends, um, the less I felt like she showed up. I feel like she showed up less and less, but I still remember talking to her a lot. I would do the same thing where I would close my door and just play and talk to her. And I would ride my bike.

Like, and the more like I got connected to the outside world, you know, and had other friends, um, the less I felt like she showed up. I feel like she showed up less and less, but I still remember talking to her a lot. I would do the same thing where I would close my door and just play and talk to her. And I would ride my bike.

And now I was old enough that I could go all the way around the island. So I would talk to her a lot while I was going all the way around the island. So I remember continuing to talk to her till I was around 10. I don't remember the last time I saw her. This is a great pain of mine because I wish I could. I do feel that she said goodbye to me, but I can't recall that specific memory.

And now I was old enough that I could go all the way around the island. So I would talk to her a lot while I was going all the way around the island. So I remember continuing to talk to her till I was around 10. I don't remember the last time I saw her. This is a great pain of mine because I wish I could. I do feel that she said goodbye to me, but I can't recall that specific memory.

And now I was old enough that I could go all the way around the island. So I would talk to her a lot while I was going all the way around the island. So I remember continuing to talk to her till I was around 10. I don't remember the last time I saw her. This is a great pain of mine because I wish I could. I do feel that she said goodbye to me, but I can't recall that specific memory.

I remember being really sad because I couldn't talk to her anymore. And I was so sad that I wrote a poem about it. And I gave that poem to my mom for Mother's Day about how much I miss Lauren and that I wished that I could connect with her. I still remember part of it.

I remember being really sad because I couldn't talk to her anymore. And I was so sad that I wrote a poem about it. And I gave that poem to my mom for Mother's Day about how much I miss Lauren and that I wished that I could connect with her. I still remember part of it.

I remember being really sad because I couldn't talk to her anymore. And I was so sad that I wrote a poem about it. And I gave that poem to my mom for Mother's Day about how much I miss Lauren and that I wished that I could connect with her. I still remember part of it.

If only I could tell you, if only you could see, if only you were here and were standing next to me, I would tell you that I loved you and that I always cared, that you were always with me, especially when I was scared. And there's like at least three more verses that's like, I remember saying she's behind like an angel guarded door or something. It's very saccharine, but I was 11, okay? Yeah.