Maddie

I feel like I was still drunk. I, and this is not me making excuses. It was just like such a surreal thing, like waking up and finding out all of that stuff. So my boyfriend picked me up and he also was at work at the time, like working a day job. And I was like, Hey, pick me up from the hospital. I just got a DUI. Um, So that all went down.

And also, I had agreed to work a private event for that bar that I was working at. So I was supposed to work at a golf course that morning at 730 in the morning. Obviously, I did not make it to that. So whenever I finally got my phone all charged up, people were like, where are you at? You're supposed to be working this golf event. So that was just even more added anxiety.

And also, I had agreed to work a private event for that bar that I was working at. So I was supposed to work at a golf course that morning at 730 in the morning. Obviously, I did not make it to that. So whenever I finally got my phone all charged up, people were like, where are you at? You're supposed to be working this golf event. So that was just even more added anxiety.

I was like, oh my God, like I don't know what I did. How am I gonna move on from this? Luckily in the service industry, a lot of other people have DUIs and have messed up just like you. So I had this friend I was working with and she gave me the contact information to a lawyer that she had used. And she said, don't worry, girl, I drove into a house. And I was like, what?

I was like, oh my God, like I don't know what I did. How am I gonna move on from this? Luckily in the service industry, a lot of other people have DUIs and have messed up just like you. So I had this friend I was working with and she gave me the contact information to a lawyer that she had used. And she said, don't worry, girl, I drove into a house. And I was like, what?

And she was like, yeah, I drove into a house. And the people were not home. But she had driven into the portion of the house that was the nursery and stuff.

And she was like, yeah, I drove into a house. And the people were not home. But she had driven into the portion of the house that was the nursery and stuff.

And so that's what she had driven into. And that was her DWI story. So like, as soon as I heard that, I was like, OK, I didn't drive into. Yeah, I didn't drive into a nursery. So like, I'm still doing OK. No, babe, you drove the wrong way down a major highway like that. The clues were there. I just was in denial. So I got without attorney.

And so that's what she had driven into. And that was her DWI story. So like, as soon as I heard that, I was like, OK, I didn't drive into. Yeah, I didn't drive into a nursery. So like, I'm still doing OK. No, babe, you drove the wrong way down a major highway like that. The clues were there. I just was in denial. So I got without attorney.

And since I was so young, since I was 19 and whenever I got sentenced, I was finally 21. I think that's the reason they took it so easy on me. Because I only got this thing called labor detail. And you basically go and check into this facility. And then they take you out in groups like vans. And we're all inmates. We're all there to serve our community service, if you will say.

And since I was so young, since I was 19 and whenever I got sentenced, I was finally 21. I think that's the reason they took it so easy on me. Because I only got this thing called labor detail. And you basically go and check into this facility. And then they take you out in groups like vans. And we're all inmates. We're all there to serve our community service, if you will say.

And they took us out to the local jails. I put up a fence, like a fence for Mayfest. I cleaned the jails. Like I said, I would clean like random fire offices and stuff like that. And this may sound freakish, but I kind of enjoyed it. Like I didn't mind that punishment. I don't know why. if that's wrong or whatever, but I didn't mind like getting up and going and like cleaning stuff.

And they took us out to the local jails. I put up a fence, like a fence for Mayfest. I cleaned the jails. Like I said, I would clean like random fire offices and stuff like that. And this may sound freakish, but I kind of enjoyed it. Like I didn't mind that punishment. I don't know why. if that's wrong or whatever, but I didn't mind like getting up and going and like cleaning stuff.

Like I was like, okay, this is my punishment. Like, Okay, girl. But also I had an interlock in my car. So as soon as I completed the labor detail, I still wasn't done because I still had to have that interlock on my car. And by then I was working at a new restaurant.

Like I was like, okay, this is my punishment. Like, Okay, girl. But also I had an interlock in my car. So as soon as I completed the labor detail, I still wasn't done because I still had to have that interlock on my car. And by then I was working at a new restaurant.

And at this new restaurant, I figured out that if whenever I got to my shift at 3.30, I could have two drinks, chug them, and then be fine by midnight whenever we closed to drive and blow in my interlock again. And so be sober. Like, why am I doing that? Like, what is going on? And there is literally nothing wrong in my life. Like, just an average girl going to school, working two jobs, like...

And at this new restaurant, I figured out that if whenever I got to my shift at 3.30, I could have two drinks, chug them, and then be fine by midnight whenever we closed to drive and blow in my interlock again. And so be sober. Like, why am I doing that? Like, what is going on? And there is literally nothing wrong in my life. Like, just an average girl going to school, working two jobs, like...

Nothing traumatic, like nobody hurt me, nothing happened. I'm just in this state of mind. And I think that's also why it's so confusing for me to look back to is because I don't have that... Oh, well, you know, someone did something to me or, you know, this happened and I did this or, you know, a big traumatic event. Nothing like that happened. So...

Nothing traumatic, like nobody hurt me, nothing happened. I'm just in this state of mind. And I think that's also why it's so confusing for me to look back to is because I don't have that... Oh, well, you know, someone did something to me or, you know, this happened and I did this or, you know, a big traumatic event. Nothing like that happened. So...

And too often it does lead to that spiral. And again, like nothing traumatic happened to me, but I was on a mission to –