Maddie
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Yeah. I'm not a doctor and I have no interest in the medical field. So I'll be honest with you. Like I haven't done anything. a ton of medical research on alcoholic ketoacidosis, but all I know is my symptoms, what I experienced, and what the doctors told me, and that's good enough for me.
No, literally. Okay. I was like... And? Pick a bigger consequence. Because at this point, I already had two DWIs. I'd already been in the hospital for alcoholic ketoacidosis. I didn't care. Right. So that all happened. And then... About a year, two years into doing that, I got a message from one of my old bar managers at that job that I loved that I had gotten fired from.
No, literally. Okay. I was like... And? Pick a bigger consequence. Because at this point, I already had two DWIs. I'd already been in the hospital for alcoholic ketoacidosis. I didn't care. Right. So that all happened. And then... About a year, two years into doing that, I got a message from one of my old bar managers at that job that I loved that I had gotten fired from.
Yeah. Okay. And her name is Bonnie. And she messaged me and she was like, hey, girl, you want a big girl job? And I was like, yes, absolutely. Like, please save me. Like, I'm working at Green Gator. Like, I'm tortured. Yeah. And she was like, OK, cool. You know, we're going to go meet at Spex. And that's a big liquor company for Texas. And I was like, OK, cool. And I didn't know what I was doing.
Yeah. Okay. And her name is Bonnie. And she messaged me and she was like, hey, girl, you want a big girl job? And I was like, yes, absolutely. Like, please save me. Like, I'm working at Green Gator. Like, I'm tortured. Yeah. And she was like, OK, cool. You know, we're going to go meet at Spex. And that's a big liquor company for Texas. And I was like, OK, cool. And I didn't know what I was doing.
All I knew was that I could get out of the service industry and here was my chance. To really make something of myself. Like, I didn't care how I was getting it. I didn't care what I was doing. I didn't care if I was working in a warehouse. I was like, finally, some health insurance and something to keep me on my shit.
All I knew was that I could get out of the service industry and here was my chance. To really make something of myself. Like, I didn't care how I was getting it. I didn't care what I was doing. I didn't care if I was working in a warehouse. I was like, finally, some health insurance and something to keep me on my shit.
Because I also respected the hell out of Bonnie. Bonnie is the one who taught me how to bartend. Bonnie is the one who... I roomed with whenever I was on those trips to do speed rack. Bonnie is the one who helped me get all those private events outside of the ranch, making extra money. You know, she really took me under her wing and she really saw so much potential in me.
Because I also respected the hell out of Bonnie. Bonnie is the one who taught me how to bartend. Bonnie is the one who... I roomed with whenever I was on those trips to do speed rack. Bonnie is the one who helped me get all those private events outside of the ranch, making extra money. You know, she really took me under her wing and she really saw so much potential in me.
And I still, I just light up when I talk about her. I love her so much. Yeah. So she messaged me and then I went and interviewed at Specs and I was like, you know, this is what I'm doing. I'm working, you know, bartending, blah, blah, blah. She was like, okay, well, you'll be a sales rep here. And I was like, okay. And then I started and everything was going good.
And I still, I just light up when I talk about her. I love her so much. Yeah. So she messaged me and then I went and interviewed at Specs and I was like, you know, this is what I'm doing. I'm working, you know, bartending, blah, blah, blah. She was like, okay, well, you'll be a sales rep here. And I was like, okay. And then I started and everything was going good.
Like I, my drinking wasn't under control, but it was under control enough to where I would just save getting sick for those three days for the weekend. So like by Friday, I would kind of be like, I'm going to fucking throw up all weekend. But again, I was trying to make it work. I was slowly trying to get out of my alcoholism. But... It's hard to do on your own. Yeah. I like to. Yeah. And then...
Like I, my drinking wasn't under control, but it was under control enough to where I would just save getting sick for those three days for the weekend. So like by Friday, I would kind of be like, I'm going to fucking throw up all weekend. But again, I was trying to make it work. I was slowly trying to get out of my alcoholism. But... It's hard to do on your own. Yeah. I like to. Yeah. And then...
I don't know. Again, this is so not confusing to me, but this is all so much for me to talk about because, again, there was not a traumatic event. Like, nothing happened for me to be like, oh, I'm going to get out of my fucking mind tonight because this person touched me or, you know, hurt me or whatever. Nothing like that happened. So, yeah. I started to slack off at the job.
I don't know. Again, this is so not confusing to me, but this is all so much for me to talk about because, again, there was not a traumatic event. Like, nothing happened for me to be like, oh, I'm going to get out of my fucking mind tonight because this person touched me or, you know, hurt me or whatever. Nothing like that happened. So, yeah. I started to slack off at the job.
And that is not like me. And body knows that's not like me. If you've heard my story this whole time.