Maddie

And that is not like me. And body knows that's not like me. If you've heard my story this whole time.

Yeah. And again, people have kept me even despite my mistakes, which... I wouldn't have, but anyways. So I got the job. I was doing really good, kind of a little slip up. And then I started slacking off because I was just getting too sick. I could not get up and go to work. And... Bonnie was like, you know, you're going to have to have a meeting with me tomorrow.

Yeah. And again, people have kept me even despite my mistakes, which... I wouldn't have, but anyways. So I got the job. I was doing really good, kind of a little slip up. And then I started slacking off because I was just getting too sick. I could not get up and go to work. And... Bonnie was like, you know, you're going to have to have a meeting with me tomorrow.

And we have to discuss like we have some serious things to discuss. And I knew what was coming. Like, I'm not fucking stupid. Bonnie's not fucking stupid.

And we have to discuss like we have some serious things to discuss. And I knew what was coming. Like, I'm not fucking stupid. Bonnie's not fucking stupid.

Sometimes, but not as often. I was just kind of like doing it at home. Got it. Like I just would like by that point, I knew that I could take like small little sips of Pedialyte. And then like I knew I could eat, you know, Jell-O and slowly ease myself back into things or like sip on chicken broth. Yeah.

Sometimes, but not as often. I was just kind of like doing it at home. Got it. Like I just would like by that point, I knew that I could take like small little sips of Pedialyte. And then like I knew I could eat, you know, Jell-O and slowly ease myself back into things or like sip on chicken broth. Yeah.

So, I just, like, I kind of stopped going to the hospital, too, because I was also, like, so embarrassed that I kept on needing that treatment.

So, I just, like, I kind of stopped going to the hospital, too, because I was also, like, so embarrassed that I kept on needing that treatment.

And they, like, I was seeing the same people, you know? Right. They're like, here's this fucking Maddie Evans bitch again. But... She was like, you know, we're going to have a meeting tomorrow. And I was like, fuck. So I got so fucking out of my mind that night. Like, I did not want to wake up. This was the night before the meeting? The night before the meeting.

And they, like, I was seeing the same people, you know? Right. They're like, here's this fucking Maddie Evans bitch again. But... She was like, you know, we're going to have a meeting tomorrow. And I was like, fuck. So I got so fucking out of my mind that night. Like, I did not want to wake up. This was the night before the meeting? The night before the meeting.

I was only at this job for, uh, three months. Okay. Yeah. Um, and I was already having a talking to, um, and I got so out of my mind. I did not want to go to that meeting. Like I fully went to sleep with like not, and I was taking, again, I was just drinking a shit ton and I took like, um,

I was only at this job for, uh, three months. Okay. Yeah. Um, and I was already having a talking to, um, and I got so out of my mind. I did not want to go to that meeting. Like I fully went to sleep with like not, and I was taking, again, I was just drinking a shit ton and I took like, um,

Fucking ibuprofen, antihistamines like Benadryl, NyQuil, like anything I could do to like alter my state, I was taking that night. And of course I woke up the next day and told Bonnie, I was like, I tried to call myself last night. Like I... I can't have this meeting. Like, just don't even talk to me about it. And she was like, OK, well, that's not OK. Like, let's get you some help.

Fucking ibuprofen, antihistamines like Benadryl, NyQuil, like anything I could do to like alter my state, I was taking that night. And of course I woke up the next day and told Bonnie, I was like, I tried to call myself last night. Like I... I can't have this meeting. Like, just don't even talk to me about it. And she was like, OK, well, that's not OK. Like, let's get you some help.

Let's get you some treatment. It's been three months. Guess what? You have now health insurance.

Let's get you some treatment. It's been three months. Guess what? You have now health insurance.

And I was like, what? And this is the first time that anybody has ever been like, sorry, you're too much of a liability. I've got to find another job, sweetheart. This is the first time that somebody's been like, this is not okay. Like what you're doing is not okay. What happened is not okay. Let's get you.

And I was like, what? And this is the first time that anybody has ever been like, sorry, you're too much of a liability. I've got to find another job, sweetheart. This is the first time that somebody's been like, this is not okay. Like what you're doing is not okay. What happened is not okay. Let's get you.

Yeah. So I found and she goes, and also you can't work here anymore if you don't go get help. So I was like, okay. Now I'm going to go get help. So I was the one who found the rehab facility and I was the one who paid for it. Like I had to put down, you know, your insurance doesn't start paying for stuff until you pay off your first, what is that called?