Maddie

Cause my parents cannot afford, like I took out, I'm still paying on those loans. Like, you know, my parents couldn't really afford for me to go move up to Dallas. I had to work to pay for everything. Um, And so I was working two jobs and trying to go to school and trying to keep up with cheer. So I just kind of let that cheer thing go, which I look back on and I'm so sad about.

Cause my parents cannot afford, like I took out, I'm still paying on those loans. Like, you know, my parents couldn't really afford for me to go move up to Dallas. I had to work to pay for everything. Um, And so I was working two jobs and trying to go to school and trying to keep up with cheer. So I just kind of let that cheer thing go, which I look back on and I'm so sad about.

Um, that was a really great distraction for me and that really did keep me healthy.

Um, that was a really great distraction for me and that really did keep me healthy.

Yeah. Um, and like whenever I moved up here, I was also like one of my two jobs was cheering, uh, coaching. And so like, that was a really fun job for me. Um, and And in fact, the lady who got me the coaching job up in Dallas, she's the mother of the boy who took care of me whenever I was 14 and later on lost my virginity too. So it's just like... Small world. I know.

Yeah. Um, and like whenever I moved up here, I was also like one of my two jobs was cheering, uh, coaching. And so like, that was a really fun job for me. Um, and And in fact, the lady who got me the coaching job up in Dallas, she's the mother of the boy who took care of me whenever I was 14 and later on lost my virginity too. So it's just like... Small world. I know.

But yeah, that kind of devastated me. Losing or having to give it up because I have to make a living. You know what I mean? So that was kind of.

But yeah, that kind of devastated me. Losing or having to give it up because I have to make a living. You know what I mean? So that was kind of.

No, because cheer is not actually considered a sport.

No, because cheer is not actually considered a sport.

So you can't really get scholarships for cheer. You can get scholarships for like gymnastics and aerobatics team, a rope. team. But cheer has never been considered a sport unless things have changed. But whenever I went to school in 2011, that was not a thing. I moved up here and like I said, I was coaching cheer, but whenever I decided to quit, I quit cheer altogether.

So you can't really get scholarships for cheer. You can get scholarships for like gymnastics and aerobatics team, a rope. team. But cheer has never been considered a sport unless things have changed. But whenever I went to school in 2011, that was not a thing. I moved up here and like I said, I was coaching cheer, but whenever I decided to quit, I quit cheer altogether.

Like I was, I didn't want any ties to it. I think that was also kind of the reason I'm so sad about it is because I really did just like cut that part out of my life. I was like, I don't have time for this. It's not making me money. I'm barely making enough to survive. And I only need 625 a month for rent. So like, let's get going girl.

Like I was, I didn't want any ties to it. I think that was also kind of the reason I'm so sad about it is because I really did just like cut that part out of my life. I was like, I don't have time for this. It's not making me money. I'm barely making enough to survive. And I only need 625 a month for rent. So like, let's get going girl.

But so I did start getting into the service industry and I'm still in the service industry now. I love it. I it's a love hate relationship, but I will I feel like I'll forever be entwined in it. With the service industry also comes, you know, the service industry people who all like to drink and smoke pot and do coke and get fucked up after work. And that's how we cope.

But so I did start getting into the service industry and I'm still in the service industry now. I love it. I it's a love hate relationship, but I will I feel like I'll forever be entwined in it. With the service industry also comes, you know, the service industry people who all like to drink and smoke pot and do coke and get fucked up after work. And that's how we cope.

And so I fell into that at a very young age. Yeah. As soon as I moved up here at 18, I fell into that. In fact, whenever I was 19, I got my first DWI. I was working at a bar in Fort Worth and. We went across the street. We closed and we closed at two in the morning and we went across the street. Very illegal, by the way. I went across the street to a bar and drink after hours.

And so I fell into that at a very young age. Yeah. As soon as I moved up here at 18, I fell into that. In fact, whenever I was 19, I got my first DWI. I was working at a bar in Fort Worth and. We went across the street. We closed and we closed at two in the morning and we went across the street. Very illegal, by the way. I went across the street to a bar and drink after hours.

And it was just kind of for like the service industry people. Yeah. So that's where I was. And I remember being. And I also didn't drink just to casually have fun. I liked the feeling of being out of my fucking mind. I didn't want to just drink and have fun. I wanted to get fucked up. I was on a mission.

And it was just kind of for like the service industry people. Yeah. So that's where I was. And I remember being. And I also didn't drink just to casually have fun. I liked the feeling of being out of my fucking mind. I didn't want to just drink and have fun. I wanted to get fucked up. I was on a mission.