Madelaine Petsch

You heard it here first.

Yeah.

No, I yeah, I think for a long time I was like, yeah.

I was kind of terrified of the idea of bringing a child into the world and giving them the same childhood that I had, if I'm being honest with you.

Because I think teaching a child at a young age that their love is conditional, their parents' love is conditional, makes like a really strange relationship with love as an adult where you're like, I'm not enough.

The person who's supposed to love me the most doesn't love me.

No one's going to.

I was terrified that that would be my choice.

That would be how I brought children into the world because of like the partners I chose or whatever.

And just because I thought that was like part of my destiny.

And then one day I said to my therapist, man, I wish I could just have a child with my best friend.

Like my best friend's this like ball of sunshine, Andy Jane.

I was like, if we could just have a baby together and raise this baby, it would be like the happiest baby on planet Earth.

We'd give it the best life.

And she's like, hey, you can't.

you can choose who you have a child with you can choose who you're a partner with and like as a child you can't choose who your parents are so the idea of like choice being such a big part of my childhood like we spoke about but like that choice not being an option kind of trained me in my adult life that like you couldn't choose what man was in your life and so it's kind of like learning now like oh that's fully a choice I get to decide who I have a baby with that is my full decision and I can make sure that I give them an environment that is filled with love

And now I look at it like, wow, I get to give like a little human like all the love in the world that I wanted and got, you know, occasionally.

Not consistently, but I'll give it consistently.

I mean, there's a technical word for it, but I'd prefer not to use it because it's like then it labels him about his mental illnesses.

So I would say like, I guess one of his, I don't know, whatever.