Madelaine Petsch

I don't know how you would label it, to be honest.

I think it's ever evolving.

You know, I think that there is a level of my, like, I have a pretty constant anxiety that I have to constantly quell.

We talked about a little earlier.

I think that does come from a place of like, never.

I think it actually comes from more like, I never know what's going to happen next.

I'm always waiting for the shoe to drop.

So I'm like, I have to prepare myself for what could happen.

And so even when I'm in the happiest of moments, there's this lingering feeling of, oh, something bad's going to happen.

I think that is something I'm still working on, but I fully love myself.

I fully know that I'm enough.

I fully love my father.

I fully know it's not his fault.

I mean, there are certain things he should take accountability for, but his actual behavior is not his fault.

And so I think finding that our relationship is still a little fraught, I think, as to be imagined.

But it was definitely challenging.

And I think for a long time, the most challenging part was he would tell me that never happened.

Oh, wow.

Yeah, that was probably the hardest part.

I would never say that to you.