Mallory Ervin

I'm from a very faith-filled family, but I always felt the presence of God so strongly and saw so many signs that He existed and just felt that, that I feel like that was a gift that He gave me that I never doubted that He existed. Mm-hmm. I never doubted that he existed. And I would be around people that really questioned their faith.

I'm from a very faith-filled family, but I always felt the presence of God so strongly and saw so many signs that He existed and just felt that, that I feel like that was a gift that He gave me that I never doubted that He existed. Mm-hmm. I never doubted that he existed. And I would be around people that really questioned their faith.

And I would feel so lucky that I'd always felt that so strongly. And it wasn't like a blind faith. I see some people have a blind faith, just like, this is what I'm told. And this is what I read. And this is what, but I felt it in my bones. Like you knew it. I knew it. I knew it. I felt it. I would always ask for signs and stuff ever since I was a little girl.

And I would feel so lucky that I'd always felt that so strongly. And it wasn't like a blind faith. I see some people have a blind faith, just like, this is what I'm told. And this is what I read. And this is what, but I felt it in my bones. Like you knew it. I knew it. I knew it. I felt it. I would always ask for signs and stuff ever since I was a little girl.

And I would have some of the most insane experiences where I just, I knew he existed. And I knew that even in really hard times, like when I almost lost my life to addiction, when I watched my sister lose a baby, when I went through pregnancy losses, when I went through really hard things in my relationship. And in my career, I always knew He existed.

And I would have some of the most insane experiences where I just, I knew he existed. And I knew that even in really hard times, like when I almost lost my life to addiction, when I watched my sister lose a baby, when I went through pregnancy losses, when I went through really hard things in my relationship. And in my career, I always knew He existed.

And then once I started going through hard things, And seeing what would happen on the other side and how much greater things would be on the other side and realizing that I had to go through that thing.

And then once I started going through hard things, And seeing what would happen on the other side and how much greater things would be on the other side and realizing that I had to go through that thing.

Then when I was in the middle of these hard things that were happening to me, I could say something that I couldn't say in the beginning, which was sometimes through gritted teeth, but thank you, God, for what I'm about to go through because I know it's about to change my life. And I said that, you know, we just lost a pregnancy.

Then when I was in the middle of these hard things that were happening to me, I could say something that I couldn't say in the beginning, which was sometimes through gritted teeth, but thank you, God, for what I'm about to go through because I know it's about to change my life. And I said that, you know, we just lost a pregnancy.

pretty far along, and I had to have a D&C, and it was terrible, and we'd seen the heart beating, and the baby was fine, and all these things, and it was really hard. And even on the day where we showed up at that sonogram, and there was no more heart beating, I knew, gosh, I'm gonna have to walk this road again.

pretty far along, and I had to have a D&C, and it was terrible, and we'd seen the heart beating, and the baby was fine, and all these things, and it was really hard. And even on the day where we showed up at that sonogram, and there was no more heart beating, I knew, gosh, I'm gonna have to walk this road again.

I still, I had faith in God, and I remembered the other side of all of those losses that You know, I lost four babies before I had my daughter. And when I look at my daughter, I would go through every one of those pregnancy losses once a year, every single year to get that child. I would. And I think that loss and hard things that happen in our lives

I still, I had faith in God, and I remembered the other side of all of those losses that You know, I lost four babies before I had my daughter. And when I look at my daughter, I would go through every one of those pregnancy losses once a year, every single year to get that child. I would. And I think that loss and hard things that happen in our lives

especially if we can see what happens on the other side. It's so much easier in a way. Losses are always hard and it's still hard to go through terrible things, but you can know that like, God is bringing me something greater on the other side. He has every single time. He has.

especially if we can see what happens on the other side. It's so much easier in a way. Losses are always hard and it's still hard to go through terrible things, but you can know that like, God is bringing me something greater on the other side. He has every single time. He has.

Yep. Undeniable faith. And you know what? My sister had that too. And she was the one that was like really in it. And I can still remember like after that happened and they took him off of life support and we came back to their house and like they had to walk out of a hospital without a baby. And she sat on her couch and she looked at me and she said, and I wrote about this in my book too.

Yep. Undeniable faith. And you know what? My sister had that too. And she was the one that was like really in it. And I can still remember like after that happened and they took him off of life support and we came back to their house and like they had to walk out of a hospital without a baby. And she sat on her couch and she looked at me and she said, and I wrote about this in my book too.

And it was like so hard to write that chapter, but I was like, I got to write about this. You know, it's another hard thing that happens that people have happened in their lives. And I want to share this story. And the first thing she said was she looked at me and she hadn't lost her face. She looked at me and she said, do you feel like he's like a grown up angel or a baby angel in heaven.

And it was like so hard to write that chapter, but I was like, I got to write about this. You know, it's another hard thing that happens that people have happened in their lives. And I want to share this story. And the first thing she said was she looked at me and she hadn't lost her face. She looked at me and she said, do you feel like he's like a grown up angel or a baby angel in heaven.