Mallory Ervin

I feel overwhelming, overflowing gratitude every single day for my life. I do every single day and I say to my husband, I can't, can you believe it? that we got here because we also overcame so many things in our relationship. We broke up so many times. He dated me in active addiction. Like the week that we broke up was the week that things crashed and burned for me.

I feel overwhelming, overflowing gratitude every single day for my life. I do every single day and I say to my husband, I can't, can you believe it? that we got here because we also overcame so many things in our relationship. We broke up so many times. He dated me in active addiction. Like the week that we broke up was the week that things crashed and burned for me.

And then I ended up going to treatment. You know, he saw me at the lowest of the, like, can you believe it? What the Lord has given us. And we've been through different sorts of challenges where we've had to cling to our faith. We've had now five pregnancy losses and, We've been through challenges in our relationship before we got married. And we struggled financially when we first got married.

And then I ended up going to treatment. You know, he saw me at the lowest of the, like, can you believe it? What the Lord has given us. And we've been through different sorts of challenges where we've had to cling to our faith. We've had now five pregnancy losses and, We've been through challenges in our relationship before we got married. And we struggled financially when we first got married.

And, you know, there were just so many things that we had to just really trust the Lord. And like faith has played so many different roles for me, but I say thank you a lot. Now I just say thank you and I can't believe it. And I say a lot because I've been given a lot now and I know that I have a lot. And I pray the prayer that with all of this, that you, this abundance that you have given me,

And, you know, there were just so many things that we had to just really trust the Lord. And like faith has played so many different roles for me, but I say thank you a lot. Now I just say thank you and I can't believe it. And I say a lot because I've been given a lot now and I know that I have a lot. And I pray the prayer that with all of this, that you, this abundance that you have given me,

do with it what you want me to do with it. Cause I know you gave it to me for a reason. I mean, I look at how much you give and do and are to other people and just how much like you give away. And I, I, that's the next piece of it. I pray a lot. I want, I want my faith to guide me because he's given me so much and I want my faith to guide me into like Why did you give me this?

do with it what you want me to do with it. Cause I know you gave it to me for a reason. I mean, I look at how much you give and do and are to other people and just how much like you give away. And I, I, that's the next piece of it. I pray a lot. I want, I want my faith to guide me because he's given me so much and I want my faith to guide me into like Why did you give me this?

What is it that you'll have me do with this? That's what my faith is for me now. Do you ever doubt that God exists? Not one single time in my whole life have I doubted. No. I always knew. Even when I was, I don't want to say frustrated or mad, but I can still remember sometimes when hard things would happen. I remember my first pregnancy loss.

What is it that you'll have me do with this? That's what my faith is for me now. Do you ever doubt that God exists? Not one single time in my whole life have I doubted. No. I always knew. Even when I was, I don't want to say frustrated or mad, but I can still remember sometimes when hard things would happen. I remember my first pregnancy loss.

or like when my sister lost a baby, it was like her miracle baby and she lost a baby, he was five weeks old. There have been times where like, I was at the Vanderbilt Children's Hospital when my sister, It was during COVID that she lost her son. And we knew he had a heart defect and he would have to have a couple surgeries after he was born.

or like when my sister lost a baby, it was like her miracle baby and she lost a baby, he was five weeks old. There have been times where like, I was at the Vanderbilt Children's Hospital when my sister, It was during COVID that she lost her son. And we knew he had a heart defect and he would have to have a couple surgeries after he was born.

And there are times in my life where, you know, we never got to visit him in the hospital because it was right when COVID started. It was March of 2020. And they would not let us come and be there with them, going through this terrible, terrible thing, their child being on life support. And is he going to make it? Is he not? Yeah.

And there are times in my life where, you know, we never got to visit him in the hospital because it was right when COVID started. It was March of 2020. And they would not let us come and be there with them, going through this terrible, terrible thing, their child being on life support. And is he going to make it? Is he not? Yeah.

So we only got to go on the day that we knew they were going to disconnect those machines and he was not going to. We were meeting him. We knew the day that we met him that that was the day we were saying hello and goodbye all at the same time. And there are moments like that. I can remember being in that bathroom at Vanderbilt Children's Hospital.

So we only got to go on the day that we knew they were going to disconnect those machines and he was not going to. We were meeting him. We knew the day that we met him that that was the day we were saying hello and goodbye all at the same time. And there are moments like that. I can remember being in that bathroom at Vanderbilt Children's Hospital.

And I went on to my knees and I was like, why in the world would you take a baby? Because it was just, you know, you don't understand why things that hard to have to happen to people that good. And there are times in my life where I ask him questions like that and like, dang it, like, why in the world would you do this, God? It doesn't make any sense. What's happening right now?

And I went on to my knees and I was like, why in the world would you take a baby? Because it was just, you know, you don't understand why things that hard to have to happen to people that good. And there are times in my life where I ask him questions like that and like, dang it, like, why in the world would you do this, God? It doesn't make any sense. What's happening right now?

I don't see the good in this. And I know you're good. And now it's been four years since that happened. And I can see the reason for that, even though it was really terrible and really hard, but I never doubted that he existed. And Jamie, I feel lucky for that because I feel like ever since I was a child,

I don't see the good in this. And I know you're good. And now it's been four years since that happened. And I can see the reason for that, even though it was really terrible and really hard, but I never doubted that he existed. And Jamie, I feel lucky for that because I feel like ever since I was a child,