Mallory Ervin

achieving Miss Kentucky, going to Miss America, being a runner up at Miss America, doing the amazing race with my dad three times. And I'd achieved all these dreams as a young 20-something-year-old. And I started to crumble under the weight of that because I just felt like as a perfectionist, I had to be this certain type of person.

achieving Miss Kentucky, going to Miss America, being a runner up at Miss America, doing the amazing race with my dad three times. And I'd achieved all these dreams as a young 20-something-year-old. And I started to crumble under the weight of that because I just felt like as a perfectionist, I had to be this certain type of person.

And I had to outdo like everything that I had done in my life or else people were going to be disappointed in me. And I was disappointed in myself. And at this point in my life where I started to have dependence on prescription medication. that a doctor had started to prescribe me so that I could kind of keep going at this pace, this furious pace of life, keep achieving and doing and doing more.

And I had to outdo like everything that I had done in my life or else people were going to be disappointed in me. And I was disappointed in myself. And at this point in my life where I started to have dependence on prescription medication. that a doctor had started to prescribe me so that I could kind of keep going at this pace, this furious pace of life, keep achieving and doing and doing more.

And it crippled me and it became something that I almost lost my life to. And I ended up in a treatment center for six months of my life, you know, after I just walked off the Miss America stage, you know, doing all of these wonderful things.

And it crippled me and it became something that I almost lost my life to. And I ended up in a treatment center for six months of my life, you know, after I just walked off the Miss America stage, you know, doing all of these wonderful things.

And if you had told me when I was standing on that stage as this shiny, shiniest version of myself that that was where I would end up in a few years, I would have said there's no way. There's no path to that. But perfectionism is certainly a path to that. And it's something that I couldn't outrun. I couldn't keep up with. And it held me back in so many aspects of my life. It kept me in a cage.

And if you had told me when I was standing on that stage as this shiny, shiniest version of myself that that was where I would end up in a few years, I would have said there's no way. There's no path to that. But perfectionism is certainly a path to that. And it's something that I couldn't outrun. I couldn't keep up with. And it held me back in so many aspects of my life. It kept me in a cage.

And what I experienced in going through treatment, because it's never the drugs and alcohol, and treatment's always what's underneath that that got you there in the first place. And when we started digging up all of that, like, why do you feel like this? And why do you feel like you have to be this version of yourself? What if you showed up as your real, authentic, true self?

And what I experienced in going through treatment, because it's never the drugs and alcohol, and treatment's always what's underneath that that got you there in the first place. And when we started digging up all of that, like, why do you feel like this? And why do you feel like you have to be this version of yourself? What if you showed up as your real, authentic, true self?

You know, what would that look like and feel like and be like? And I emerged six months later as the most pure, authentic, non-perfectionistic version of myself. And that's when living fully, which is my whole message, it's what my book is called and my podcast is called and everything that I talk about, just like you talk about worthiness and believing in yourself.

You know, what would that look like and feel like and be like? And I emerged six months later as the most pure, authentic, non-perfectionistic version of myself. And that's when living fully, which is my whole message, it's what my book is called and my podcast is called and everything that I talk about, just like you talk about worthiness and believing in yourself.

I talk about living fully and to live the fullest life, I could no longer live as a perfectionist. Yeah. because you hold yourself back from so much when you live like that. And so, you know, how I overcame it is maybe different than a lot of people. You know, you may not have to go through an addiction or a crisis, but like it's making a decision that, A, it's the realization that like

I talk about living fully and to live the fullest life, I could no longer live as a perfectionist. Yeah. because you hold yourself back from so much when you live like that. And so, you know, how I overcame it is maybe different than a lot of people. You know, you may not have to go through an addiction or a crisis, but like it's making a decision that, A, it's the realization that like

people don't even love the perfect version of you more than they would love the authentic version of you. Isn't that true? I learned that after showing up as the authentic version of myself, you know, your moment was taking that. That's the first time that I saw Jamie was taking that makeup off on QVC and like showing your skin. I can still remember the reaction that I had to that.

people don't even love the perfect version of you more than they would love the authentic version of you. Isn't that true? I learned that after showing up as the authentic version of myself, you know, your moment was taking that. That's the first time that I saw Jamie was taking that makeup off on QVC and like showing your skin. I can still remember the reaction that I had to that.

And I saw as a person online, when I started showing up truly authentically, Talking about the good stuff and talking about the bad stuff. Showing up with no makeup and my hair wasn't brushed yet and talking about the things that I struggled with and... the non-perfect parts of myself, that's when people liked me more.

And I saw as a person online, when I started showing up truly authentically, Talking about the good stuff and talking about the bad stuff. Showing up with no makeup and my hair wasn't brushed yet and talking about the things that I struggled with and... the non-perfect parts of myself, that's when people liked me more.

Yeah, that's a great question. Because so when I first went to treatment, I was still like so delusional that there was an issue at all. But I thought when I showed up that day and luckily like my parents were the ones that facilitated like there is an issue here. We don't know because we've never experienced addiction as a family. So they were Googling and asking and trying to figure out.

Yeah, that's a great question. Because so when I first went to treatment, I was still like so delusional that there was an issue at all. But I thought when I showed up that day and luckily like my parents were the ones that facilitated like there is an issue here. We don't know because we've never experienced addiction as a family. So they were Googling and asking and trying to figure out.