Mallory Ervin

And we were kind of like throwing a Hail Mary of like, is this the issue? Like, what is the problem? Because it just looked so different for me. I wasn't out on the street doing drugs. These were prescription medications that were being prescribed to me that I had become dependent on and was taking them in a way that was not prescribed.

And we were kind of like throwing a Hail Mary of like, is this the issue? Like, what is the problem? Because it just looked so different for me. I wasn't out on the street doing drugs. These were prescription medications that were being prescribed to me that I had become dependent on and was taking them in a way that was not prescribed.

But I was still so delusional when I showed up because I felt like I still had everything together in my life, even though I really didn't. Because it... kind of looked that way on the outside. And I thought, okay, I'll show up to this place and they're going to turn me away and be like, well, she doesn't need to be here.

But I was still so delusional when I showed up because I felt like I still had everything together in my life, even though I really didn't. Because it... kind of looked that way on the outside. And I thought, okay, I'll show up to this place and they're going to turn me away and be like, well, she doesn't need to be here.

Not only did they very quickly realize I need to be there, but I did my 30 days there because most people they'll do 30 days of treatment. And at the end of 30 days, you've gone through withdrawals and all the things that you need to go through, you know, that your body needs to go through. And I thought after 30 days, I would be pretty good to go and they would send me home.

Not only did they very quickly realize I need to be there, but I did my 30 days there because most people they'll do 30 days of treatment. And at the end of 30 days, you've gone through withdrawals and all the things that you need to go through, you know, that your body needs to go through. And I thought after 30 days, I would be pretty good to go and they would send me home.

And I thought, you know, as the still perfectionist that I was, I was like, well, great, you know, this will give me a little bit of street cred and I can write a book about it one day. And like, this is going to be great, you know, for the future of me. It's okay, this blip on the radar. And

And I thought, you know, as the still perfectionist that I was, I was like, well, great, you know, this will give me a little bit of street cred and I can write a book about it one day. And like, this is going to be great, you know, for the future of me. It's okay, this blip on the radar. And

My parents came in and we sat down with my counselor and they said, we don't feel like you're finished with the work here. We are recommending extended care for you, which was three months that they wanted me to stay there longer. And I was floored by that because I had seen people that had come in that were literally on the streets using heroin and things that I thought

My parents came in and we sat down with my counselor and they said, we don't feel like you're finished with the work here. We are recommending extended care for you, which was three months that they wanted me to stay there longer. And I was floored by that because I had seen people that had come in that were literally on the streets using heroin and things that I thought

in my perfect perfectionistic mind were worse than what I was doing. I was comparing myself to other people and being like, well, they're certainly gonna let me out. Like they're not even keeping these people. And they kept me the longest.

in my perfect perfectionistic mind were worse than what I was doing. I was comparing myself to other people and being like, well, they're certainly gonna let me out. Like they're not even keeping these people. And they kept me the longest.

And it was in that three months that turned into almost five months that I did the work on uncovering what was underneath and why I'd become the person that I'd become and why I was using these things like I was using. And they did something really crazy kind of with me. They're very individualistic at the place that I went in their approach to how they help people overcome their addictions and

And it was in that three months that turned into almost five months that I did the work on uncovering what was underneath and why I'd become the person that I'd become and why I was using these things like I was using. And they did something really crazy kind of with me. They're very individualistic at the place that I went in their approach to how they help people overcome their addictions and

the things that they need to overcome that was underneath their addictions. And something that they did with me, I clearly, you know, coming from pageants and caring a lot about my appearance and what I looked like, I had had these long blonde hair extensions like my whole life. I'd never gone a day without hair extensions and full makeup and everything.

the things that they need to overcome that was underneath their addictions. And something that they did with me, I clearly, you know, coming from pageants and caring a lot about my appearance and what I looked like, I had had these long blonde hair extensions like my whole life. I'd never gone a day without hair extensions and full makeup and everything.

Um, I remember they, I'd been, um, in extended care for a few weeks and they said, well, you're doing really well. So we're going to let you have a hair appointment. Cause I had had, I have dark hair naturally and my dark roots were growing out and all these extensions were starting to fall. I was literally physically starting to fall apart. oh, amazing. Awesome.

Um, I remember they, I'd been, um, in extended care for a few weeks and they said, well, you're doing really well. So we're going to let you have a hair appointment. Cause I had had, I have dark hair naturally and my dark roots were growing out and all these extensions were starting to fall. I was literally physically starting to fall apart. oh, amazing. Awesome.

So, you know, I did all my things, filled out all my forms and this big van, white van pulls up with our treatment facility name on the side and they drive me to the hair salon. And I opened my book with this story because it was very transformative in the work that I did there. And this story may sound kind of silly to people, but it was one of the most

So, you know, I did all my things, filled out all my forms and this big van, white van pulls up with our treatment facility name on the side and they drive me to the hair salon. And I opened my book with this story because it was very transformative in the work that I did there. And this story may sound kind of silly to people, but it was one of the most