Manda Scott

This little blip of fear, which now that I'm focusing on, it feels huge, is my mentor, is here to teach me that this is a moment frozen in time, that this is the light bouncing back and forth between the cups.

It doesn't matter where it came from.

It doesn't matter what the history is.

It doesn't matter what the story is that goes with it.

Later, at another time with my therapist, I might go back and talk to the part and decide is some of this ancestral and do I want to just let go of it because actually our systems are quite often quite happy to let go of the stuff that isn't theirs.

This came down many, many, many, many generations perhaps and we can just let it go.

and then just work with the part that actually arose in this lifetime with me.

But at this moment, all that I'm doing is looking at this blip of fear, this shape, this feeling, this context within me, and really saying thank you.

Yay, you showed yourself.

This is amazing.

Thank you.

How can we work together?

and breathing into it.

And just doing this, offering the gratitude, deepening my breathing, broadening my gaze, and really holding my attention lightly on the sense inside, it's beginning to shift.

I can feel it expanding, the edges are becoming less clear cut.

It feels like morning mist when the sun comes up and it begins to dissipate.

It's got quite a hard core and it would take longer than I want to give it live doing this with you, I think, to let it completely fade away.

But even in the time we're doing this, a percentage of it, a decent percentage, 20 or 30% of it feels to me as if it's dissipated.

So this was not a huge fear.

I am not going to work in real time with you with some of my bigger fears.