Margie Warrell

Years ago, Ryan, I lived in Papua New Guinea in my 20s, not in the 1920s, I'm not that old.

In my 20s, in the 90s, I lived in Papua New Guinea for a couple of years.

And I was working in marketing, found myself

coming to a really confronting and eating disorder that I'd had through my teens.

I had bulimia.

And I thought that I was sort of over it, but it reared up again in this environment.

It was the most dangerous country outside of war zone at the time.

And suddenly I was like, what the frick?

I thought I'd sort of dealt with this.

And bam, there I was in this, what was a self-destructive cycle that I hated being in.

I had so much shame on it.

with it.

And I wanted to stop it, but my willpower wasn't enough.

I just kept finding myself in this cycle.

And by the way, I was pretty high functioning, so no one knew.

It was not obvious at all.

I also at the same time found myself continually being the confidant of super smart people, like the top lawyer with the top law firm from Australia there and a top, you know, diplomat early in her diplomatic career and that were confiding with me their struggles.

And I was like, how come these smart, intellectually high horsepower people are doing things that are hurting themselves, self-sabotaging themselves, and I'm doing it too.

And that really was the start of, for me, a really beautiful, profound, difficult, painful journey of just why is it that we humans who have so much

intellectual capacity will do things that hurt us.