Mark Kerr

It's like 2006, 2007, 2008.

I stopped fighting in 2009.

I didn't know what else to do.

All my identity was tied up in being a fighter.

You know, and understanding like these simple words of like fighting is what I did.

It's not who I am.

right i'm much more than that right i'm much more than a fighter and understanding once i got to that point you know it's like that's when some of the relief came in but part of it my head like there's something i don't know what it is and so i was just seeking relief because of like there's something that's up in my head

And I didn't know what it was.

Didn't know what it was.

Still to this day, I look at it like, you know, I call it a God shot because it was one where it's like something needs to change because this is unsustainable.

You know, unsustainable with the alcohol, unsustainable with what's going on in my head.

Get sober, things quiet down.

It's actually quiet down.

That first year of sobriety, it took to clear out all the bullshit that was in my head, going, I just need neutral.

And once I hit neutral, it's like, oh, wow, I can build on this.

It's been incredible.

It makes no sense at all, but it makes perfect sense.

They do.

They do.

Like I said, you know what I understood, like giving them the permission for the documentary, saying to John, going, okay, if this could change or help one person, then my life has value, right?