Master Shi Heng Yi

Study again, okay? I do again. So all the time, not because I necessarily wanted all of this, it's because for the sake of my parents. for the sake of they are the ones who allowed me in the first place to in a way be alive, also thanks to them. So this was in a way my expression of what they say as long as they are alive, I listen to them.

Study again, okay? I do again. So all the time, not because I necessarily wanted all of this, it's because for the sake of my parents. for the sake of they are the ones who allowed me in the first place to in a way be alive, also thanks to them. So this was in a way my expression of what they say as long as they are alive, I listen to them.

And then walking all the way up to this academic education, then finally graduating like after 20 years, And then I just returned from the graduation back to Kaiserslautern, the city where I lived, and that was the last year I spent with my father.

And then walking all the way up to this academic education, then finally graduating like after 20 years, And then I just returned from the graduation back to Kaiserslautern, the city where I lived, and that was the last year I spent with my father.

So literally meaning spending so many years in this academic education for my father, and now he's not even there to witness that it has been done for him. Now, this was like a point where I thought like, Yeah, this was the one area that stuck somehow a little bit hard. And then the next things, I call it maybe small, but it's not so small apparently.

So literally meaning spending so many years in this academic education for my father, and now he's not even there to witness that it has been done for him. Now, this was like a point where I thought like, Yeah, this was the one area that stuck somehow a little bit hard. And then the next things, I call it maybe small, but it's not so small apparently.

Because I grew up in, let's say, this Asian tradition with, let's say, different type of beliefs or rituals or ceremonies that we do. One of these things was that when my father was still lying in hospital, when it was clear that it's just going to take a few days until he would pass away.

Because I grew up in, let's say, this Asian tradition with, let's say, different type of beliefs or rituals or ceremonies that we do. One of these things was that when my father was still lying in hospital, when it was clear that it's just going to take a few days until he would pass away.

He, for example, also said, well, he only said it to me because, you know, I would be the only one who is able to do it. Don't cry for me. Because he couldn't say to my mother, she cannot handle it. Couldn't say to my brother. Yeah, but because I trust in the, I trust in the.

He, for example, also said, well, he only said it to me because, you know, I would be the only one who is able to do it. Don't cry for me. Because he couldn't say to my mother, she cannot handle it. Couldn't say to my brother. Yeah, but because I trust in the, I trust in the.

in the tradition, the reason why not to cry when my father passed away is because we do think the body is there, the body passes away, the spirit sets itself free. And when the spirit simply realizes that all the sons are there, the families, they're crying, the spirit in a way is still bound to this realm, bound to the earth's realm, let's say.

in the tradition, the reason why not to cry when my father passed away is because we do think the body is there, the body passes away, the spirit sets itself free. And when the spirit simply realizes that all the sons are there, the families, they're crying, the spirit in a way is still bound to this realm, bound to the earth's realm, let's say.

And in order to be able to help my father actually to get on a move on quicker to move on quicker that was the reason why it is sometimes so important to don't show any grief in the moment when a beloved one like passes away yeah but all of these things yeah

And in order to be able to help my father actually to get on a move on quicker to move on quicker that was the reason why it is sometimes so important to don't show any grief in the moment when a beloved one like passes away yeah but all of these things yeah

spending so many years for my father then he's not there to realize it then not being able to cry and then being in all this very very hard field and always like over achieving and No problem working 16 hours a day. Well, these are all the things that made it possible to be where I am right now.

spending so many years for my father then he's not there to realize it then not being able to cry and then being in all this very very hard field and always like over achieving and No problem working 16 hours a day. Well, these are all the things that made it possible to be where I am right now.

But at the same time, I just do feel like, especially in the moment now when my son started to come and all of these things, I just felt like there's a lot blocked there. Well, there's a lot that still needs to be released for the sake of my son. And, yeah. What is it you needed and when did you need it? I would call it recognition. Being recognized by my father at some point.

But at the same time, I just do feel like, especially in the moment now when my son started to come and all of these things, I just felt like there's a lot blocked there. Well, there's a lot that still needs to be released for the sake of my son. And, yeah. What is it you needed and when did you need it? I would call it recognition. Being recognized by my father at some point.

To finally somehow say, you did well, it's enough. But it didn't come until today. So I still keep going. I never heard it from my father. From a mother, I also don't hear it. Well, maybe in a different way, but I do think it is the father's recognition that you probably aim for. These are absolutely things that do shape my character for sure.

To finally somehow say, you did well, it's enough. But it didn't come until today. So I still keep going. I never heard it from my father. From a mother, I also don't hear it. Well, maybe in a different way, but I do think it is the father's recognition that you probably aim for. These are absolutely things that do shape my character for sure.