Matt McCusker

I always knew I wasn't like, you know, you know, like-

not neurotic.

But when I took those mushrooms, it was like the five grams, I like laid in bed, that whole thing and kind of blindfolded and all that.

And I, the day of, I was like picking out clothes, like, all right, what am I, I'm going to like wear something comfortable.

And there was like, I was looking in my closet and there was like stuff I had gotten a long time ago from Goodwill.

And I would look at shirts.

I'm like, that could be on a, that could be like a dead guy shirt.

And I was like, I'm not wearing that today.

Like I, I didn't realize.

And then when I did it, it was like, it just really just kind of like, I always tell people, it feels like there was like your, you know, like your own frame of awareness is like a football helmet.

You can't take off.

And it was just like, take it off.

And I got to like, look at it.

And I was like, dude, I'm fucking nuts.

And then I was like, oh fuck.

And then, but it was good.

And then like, or I'd like wake up in the middle of the night to pee and I'll just get like rushed with the most insane thoughts of like, I got to get back to bed right now if I don't fall back asleep.

And it's like, it just kind of like dead in a lot of that stuff, which was, that was like nice.

people now who like have to confront death you know what i mean like when you're getting older it's like yeah like that that's gonna be a godsend because before it was like you just had to like smoke cigarettes and like watch tv and that's like a really gritty way to like die you know what i mean to try to like contextualize your death and like come to peace with it so yeah i think that'll be a good thing for a lot of people

Honestly, I honestly, I just more so get stuff of like, you know,