Matt McCusker

It was hard.

Yeah, it was so hard.

Because then the big pill to swallow is, because it's easy to be like, if you're in a place where it's kind of emotionally dysregulated,

To be like, well, like for me, I could be like, well, if my fucking wife would stop doing this shit, everything will be fine.

But the big pill to swallow is you're doing shit that's not fine as well.

And you have to really control the shit you're not doing, which is to even acknowledge it just like goes against your own like biology and such.

And like literally swimming up like a strong current to be like, I'm being kind of a piece of shit here, aren't I?

Which is like...

insane to be able to recognize and do that but then to actually a admit that to the other person even when you're feeling like Yeah, but the shit you're doing still bothering me to be like I'm doing shit that sucks and I'm sorry for that and then try to like Stop yourself from doing the shit that sucks in the moment when you feel like you most want to what were your what were your things?

Just anger, like physically destructing stuff.

Not her, thank God, but like... Are you like a wall... You're a demo guy.

Oh, yeah.

You truly are from a demo family.

Smash glasses, smash walls.

I'll do all that stuff.

But I haven't done it in a long time.

Did you ever smash a glass in your hand?

No, no.

Thank God I've never smashed a glass in my hand.

I've smashed a glass into the dishwasher or other glasses.