Matt McCusker

And I actually just have a good time.

Yeah, that's my main, that's my jam.

That's my man.

Yeah, that's my jam, man.

That's what I learned out about in therapy when I was like, I don't really feel anything ever.

And they're like, oh, okay.

uh what's dissociation what what's dissociation and what's watching your thoughts and really and what's buddhism okay so i could say in a nutshell it's like you still if you're like a buddhist you still feel things but you like learn how to not let that kind of dictate your behavior in life if you're dissociated you don't feel the things really or you do like in spurts like i would still feel like anxiety and stuff

Thank God.

Yeah, thank God.

Yeah, thank God.

The anxiety and anger was kind of all I had.

But the, yeah, like it would be like, you know, I remember when one of my brothers had their first kid and I would like walk in and be like, oh, there's my nephew.

And I was, you know, still kind of young.

And I'd be like, and it would just be that experience for me was just me being like, yep, that's my nephew.

I'm an uncle now.

And I was just narrating what was happening with just zero feeling whatsoever.

Yeah.

And then, like, you know, every single, like, you go through a wedding, you feel nothing the day of.

You don't really feel much.

Yours?