Matt McCusker

Once I had a kid, that like smashed, that was when I was like, whoa.

It was like almost... You did care or you didn't care?

Oh, big time.

Face of my first child was like, it felt like it just shattered like a pane of glass.

As soon as I saw her.

At first, it was like deja vu where I was like, I know this person.

And that was like a weird, and then it was just like this overwhelming sense of like immediacy and like just love.

And I was like, this is amazing.

I don't know.

I can't explain it, but I saw her face, and I was like... Because you think about them so much when they're in the womb, and then you see their face, and you're like... It was my first impression was like, I know you.

And it was just kind of like... Yeah, I got to hold her and stuff right away, and it was nice.

Yeah.

No, that makes sense.

For me, if I say, you know, if I'm saying this correctly, dissociation stuff is more like almost like a cold clinical perspective where I'd be like, this is what's happening now.

And I'd be like, okay.

You know, you're almost like narrating it like point by point.

Almost you're dealing with everything theoretically whereas you're saying actually being in like, you know, the heat of it.

Or spiritual, whatever you want to.

Yeah, if you want to be like, I'm totally detached.

Which, you know, again, I have...