Matt McCusker

We had no couches, like everything was gone.

Yeah.

So they got, it was just like, it was like fun for them.

Yeah.

When I'd been like, this is why I work because you guys need couches and blah, blah, blah.

But the thing I've arrived at is like,

Yeah, it's good to do stuff for your kids.

It's good to put them first, all that stuff, in terms of, like, you know, you can't just, like, ignore them.

That'd be terrible.

But also, like, I have to do a thing that makes me a happy human being because if I'm just miserable to be like, well, that way, you know, I've become an accountant, so that way I'm around every day.

Yeah.

I'd be fucking miserable and I'd be mean to them.

So you have to kind of find a balance where, like, you know, for me, it's like, you know, I'm going to do the things that make me happy but also be, like, very conscious of...

the time we get to spend together and i i want to like be structure things so like i'm only away for a couple days max at a time rather than being like yeah i'm going for a month catch you later yeah which would just it would just kill me i can't do that yeah doesn't kill doesn't kill everybody yeah i know but they have to that's the big thing of like you still you can't be like you know nail yourself to a cross and be like i'm gonna give up everything because then you're just gonna resent them years later and they're gonna be like why didn't i didn't ask you to do that yeah so

Remember when you were a baby and you cried in front of me?

It was a combination, because that's the thing, too.

I don't want to fall into the thing where like, hey, guys, relax.

Life's great.

They're like, yeah, but you have a bunch of fucking money in your community.

And it's like, true.