Matt Willis

I think that's one of the reasons I'm in a band.

It's because I felt like,

You know, you have to have a massive insecurity problem to go through the hardships.

It took us 10 years to get a record deal, 10 years of having nothing, because I wanted to get the adulation of being on stage.

You know, of people going, you're amazing.

Because obviously, I think there was something in me that felt I wasn't enough.

And then when I drank, it kind of...

hid that from me, numbed it from me, made me forget about it.

I think it goes hand in hand.

Wanting to be like a successful music, you know, obviously I love music, but there was definitely an element of me that wanted the success as a validation.

And I think... As approval.

As approval, and I think...

alcohol was definitely a way of hiding away from that.

You know, I felt, well, I didn't feel comfortable in my own skin sometimes.

And drinking just, you know, hit all that for me.

Yeah.

Definitely, that really resonates with me.

I hit both aspects of drinking.

One, for the big highs and the big nights.

I love that.