Maya Umemoto Gorman

And like, she lives obviously a Japanese lifestyle and like, she's very,

slow, she's very, girl, she'd go to the grocery store, she'd pick up to her tree, she'd make it that night, she hangs up her laundry, her just way of living is so, I don't know why this is making me tear up, I just love her so much, but it's just so much slower and,

more intentional and less distracted and kind of just like busy and I think like you know when I go to Japan I have a familial experience that's why I'm like we should go so we could have like a young ho experience like I have never really like drink in Japan I've never like gone to a nightclub like it's always very much just like I'm going to like the supermarket with my aunt like making dinner you know what I mean and like hanging out um because it's very like family ties but um I don't know something about that like really actually give me ego death like I woke up one morning and I was just like

the things that I think matter to me on my day to day when I live in the States, when I'm not in the States, like I haven't thought about them one time.

Yeah, I think I think that's the like promise that I made to myself and also something so crazy that like the last thing I'll say on the ego death because it literally happened like one morning when I woke up, I have it like written down in my journal.

But the time difference is also really fierce because specifically like by the time I wake up, well, by the time I was waking up, it was like what, like noon for you guys or like 1 p.m.

or something like that.

And even just like in a digital sense, like the feeling of waking up and everyone's already posted for the day rather than the wake up of like what you don't notice is like kind of like soft hum routine of like people kind of like posting throughout the day.

And then it's kind of like, you know, you see something new every two hours, but I would like wake up in the morning and literally it would be like 30 fucking posts.

And like that, like I woke up one morning and I like scrolled on Instagram and I literally was like,

like it's too much yeah it's too much like order to break it's too much you know so i think that's like all of those things being the brick is tea i have one the brick is tea and i'm also yeah i think for me that you know aside from all the fun and chill awesome experiences and shopping and food that i had there like i think that's like the thing that i um like that's like the seed that i took back

you know what i mean where i'm kind of just like there really are things that i want to adapt into my regular life to just like kind of keep my sanity and like my cortisol down yeah um and so for that specifically like i'm i think that's where i find like the most of my gratitude is i'm literally like oh shit like what actually fucking matters to me you know what i mean yeah like revisiting that is like in my plan for the next like week now that i'm sitting in la for more than two days yeah well and that's what i was gonna say too is like

You know, the girls that don't know.

it's yeah it's it's really interesting but yeah it's it's like finding a way to like balance everything yeah because at the end of the day that's all you can do you know what i mean yeah no and heavy on and heavy on balance for sure so that's like my next um thing that i'm setting like i did like my first meditation like genuinely probably six months last night i was like oh what the fuck like it's like chill

yeah but yeah it's like the proactive versus the reactive of yeah dude totally the having a plan and like knowing like yeah yeah it's it's it's tough i mean i think like the sweep up too is like really fierce like we can't um not acknowledge that you know where i feel like

It like it like shit like ramped up and even the traveling and even the things that come with traveling of like when we know that like one of us are going to be gone or whatever like we're always recording like you know what I mean like there's just so many I think things that have also changed that maybe we haven't even fully realized have changed if that makes sense like in the sweep up of like.

it's like finding a new routine when like a routine has already been set for you in a way of like, you know, you know, like when we genuinely like y'all, Hey, when y'all know, Hey, you know, if you've seen us at a school show, you know, T, but like when the school literally be like, Hey, next week we'll be like, yeah, fuck it.

And it's like, okay, T, how do you even, or like finding how you can like prepare for an unpredictable schedule?

Yeah.

You know, it's almost like, well, yeah.