Meagan

Did I hide it well?

Did I really?

And he... I really didn't.

I hid a lot of the...

voices and just that darkness the sense that the house was possessed that the devil was in the corner the killing the family nightmares the suicidal thoughts wanting to drive my car into semis i hid all of that pretty good i never discussed that type of stuff

But obviously I didn't hide the crying and the keeping the diapers and stuff like that very well at all.

But the whole point, just the point of me coming today was just to show how something that is a little more simple, just minor resentment, a little bit of jealousy, those feelings could be normal.

when you have someone's fifth child, those feelings could be normal.

You're just jealous.

This isn't his first rodeo, but yet it's mine.

And so things that are special to me, he has seen four times before.

And so it's not very special.

And so just those little bitty feelings of resentment

can turn into something very severe if you don't speak up and seek help.

Because even whenever I was telling my doctor I'm crying a lot, I didn't tell her anything else.

How is she going to be able to help me?

He's like, but like add it to the list.

Right.

Yeah.

Yeah.