Michael Chernow

But I just didn't have the courage.

I didn't have the courage to do it.

I didn't really care about anybody else.

I didn't care about myself.

I just didn't have the balls to end it that way.

I'm so grateful that I didn't have the courage to do that.

But came to, and I remember the sun coming through the window.

And I had slept through work for the umpteenth time, called my boss, said, Frank, I'm sorry, man.

He was like, Mike, come downstairs.

I lived upstairs from the bar that I worked in.

And he said, Mikey, I love you.

And he was, he really did.

You know, he was like my surrogate dad at the time, you know, and I was like, he hired me two and a half years before.

So, and everybody, like I said, like people love Mikey the bartender, you know, people love being around me.

I mean, I was like a...

I was the guy I am right here.

But I was just... Fun.

Fun, but just scared of life.

Because a lot of people around me were doing the things I was doing, right?

They just were like, I wasn't hanging out with, you know, the guys going to the gym.