Michael Pollan

Even though after this 10 days of withdrawal, I didn't feel myself, which was really weird.

And I realized I felt more myself on this drug than I did off it.

And so, like, what's that about?

Like, it had really become that integral to how I...

lived and perceived the world.

So it got me in touch with how powerful this is.

But it was worth it, not just for the story value, it was worth it because the first cup I had after going back on was fantastic.

I mean, so much better than coffee is normally that I recommend a caffeine fast just for the pleasure of that first cup.

And I was like, how can I keep this going?

You know, I want to enjoy this experience.

And I thought for a long time, well, I'm just going to have coffee one day a week.

And that worked for a couple of weeks.

But then I had a deadline on a Thursday and I was like, you know, caffeine would really get me over the hurdle.

So I started making exceptions like any addict, basically.

And before long, I was down the slippery slope and back to my daily habit.

But isn't that the real Michael Pollan with caffeine?

Which is the real one?

The real one is with caffeine.

When we talk about drugs and we talk about addiction, there's a moral connotation to it.

But in fact, from what I can tell, there's really no downside to a caffeine addiction up to a certain point.