Michael Smoak

Were you scared?

Yeah, terrified.

Terrified.

I mean, finally felt like I'd arrived.

Like I've done all of this stuff and I finally got myself to this country I've dreamed to live in for so long.

The reason that you do the work is to get to the stage where you can

Do this.

Have my own space and have my own team and finally talk to the people that I want to for as long as I want about what I want.

Just as it felt like I'd got my foot in the door and arrived.

It felt like that had been whipped out from underneath me.

It felt unfair.

I think that's what a lot of people feel.

Unfairness.

I think about this.

I wonder how many people died.

Someone gets hit by a car, somebody gets shot on purpose or accidentally stray bullets, or there's a mugging that goes wrong or somebody slips and falls from something.

And in the final few moments before they die, how many of them were just surprised or felt like it was unfair?

That has to be a huge proportion of people.

I wasn't supposed to, this wasn't supposed to be me.

And that's it.