Michael Smoak

central thrust of the last live show that I did.

It was the thing that people spoke about the most.

It's kind of taken on a life of its own, which is really cool.

And I think what's coolest about it is that it puts a name to something that a lot of people feel and that nobody had actually come up with a term for previously.

And yeah, it's a, it's not

romantic.

There's no point in that process that makes you feel like there's glory happening.

Your entire journey of personal development is just steeped in uncertainty and self-doubt.

It's not cool.

It's not sexy.

The Rocky cut scene was three and a half minutes in the movies.

It's been four years for me.

What the fuck is going on?

That's it.

There's no promise of any success on the other side of it.

I'm permanently questioning if I'm making any progress.

Am I doing this right?

And it isn't like every month, every training montage that you've seen where the hero goes from realizing he needs to change to the change with ups and downs in the journey and the progress, but no loss of conviction.

I lost conviction all the fucking time.

Like, what should I be doing?